[MM] First Time (xposted – gaystoriesgonewild)

Long time lurker…first time posting…posted on mobile, sorry for any grammar/spelling mistakes.

Countless hours wondering whether I should post this, is there anyway I can be discovered, anxiety at the thought but as I sit here….well you only live once… and I simply have to get this off my chest…

I’m married, over 30, never had a problem getting women but got married young and had some kids years later living the suburban dream. Great job, own my home, nice cars etc. But Have never really been happy. I consider myself a sex addict, not in the “I think about sex a lot” kind of way but in the “I need sex twice a day, or jerk off 4 times a day or I’m miserable” kind of way

This brings me to frequent massage parlours, hit on anything that moves and go way to far with other women, yes I know cheating is a terrible thing but so is living life feeling like your missing out on what truely makes you happy…and getting off with randoms truely makes me happy…

Getting to the story at hand…I have always been curious at what it would be like to be with another guy, I’ve watched gay porn, specifically gay for pay as I love the idea of being seduced into trying something so outside my comfort level.

I started to browse and post on craigslist, endlessly messaging other guys who liked my post but never getting the nerve to actually meet up. There was a mental block preventing me from just jumping in. Once craigslist got shut down I panicked, my extra curricular entertainment of showing my dick to random men and being coaxed into meeting them suddenly completely gone. So I went to the only other avenue I could think of…Grindr.

So I downloaded it, careful to shut off all app sharing on my iPads computer etc…so much planning..and I entered the Grindr world. Wayyyy different then craigslist..guys immediately started to message the straight guy with a curious profile. Most guys on there actually creeped me out, coming on way too strong and some just outright rude. I deleted the app many times but always circled back, like a hidden life I couldn’t resist redownloading and starting up again, ignoring the profiles that didn’t appeal to me and leading on others but again never taking it as far as to meet.

Finally one night I’m sitting along in my man cave scrolling through profiles and a decent looking guy messages me, my age and only 5 km from my house. He plays it super cool asking different questions about what brought me on the app, have I ever actually gone through with meeting someone, would I send a pic of my dick. I chatted with him for hours, all of a sudden ignoring all other messages and once again after that night deleted the app and forgot about it.

Now it’s a couple weeks later and I’m horny as all hell, I download the app again and first one to messsage me is mr. 30 year old telling me to get off my ass and come see him, we could just go for a coffee and take it from there. I told him not tonight and kept stringing him along saying another time. Finally after some incredible persistence, I caved and told him I would meet him tomorrow (Saturday).

I deleted the app and went to bed thinking fuck whatever if I don’t want to in the morning I’ll just stay off the app a couple days.

So the morning comes and I’m hard as a rock, I roll over and try to get some early morning loving from the wife. She refuses as per normal leaving me hanging with a raging hard on knowing there was a willing participant is close who actually wanted to pay attention to me.

I download the app in the bathroom while taking a shower and message mr. 30. He says he’s been waiting and tells me to come pick him up. I finish in the shower, get dressed and tell the wife I need to head to the office for a couple hours to get caught up from the week, jump in the truck and head out.

Now I’m nervous as all hell, he has me pick him up in a parking lot by his house. I wait about 5 minutes and see him coming down the entrance to the parking lot. At this point I’m thinking – fuck it man bail and never look back…

I sit there frozen as he walks up beside my truck, I unlock the door with my heart in my throat, was probably shaking as I was so nervous. He jumps in and we start to drive, going through a Starbucks drive-through and grabbing a coffee I drive around town making small talk not really sure where to go. Finally I get the idea of parking at a lake side park I used to go to in high school. Hes down and is just enjoying getting out as he just got fired from work and hadn’t been out in a bit.

We park, away from the other cars, other people enjoying their Saturday morning by the lake. I turn off the truck and we sit in awkward silence for a bit. I look over at him and say I honestly have no idea what to do next. He stares at me probably enjoying seeing me so nervous, and simply reaches over and starts grabbing my cock through my jeans.

And that’s it, it was on. I reclined the seat, enjoying him rubbing my leg and massaging my cock I give him a nod of encouragement and he starts undoing my belt, unzips and pulls my jeans apart.

I am rock hard at this point, Precum just dripping into my boxers and he keeps playing through the thinner material. As his one hand is playing with my dick his other hand is massaging my leg meanwhile he is staring out the front window of the truck as if nothing at all was happening and this was completely normal…

He gets more confidence as a moan escapes my lips, a deep moan, a moan that all at once relives months of built up stress and anxiety about this exact situation.

He undoes the button of my boxers and pulls my dick out. Now he had seen it before as I had sent pics through the app but gives a nod of approval as it stands tall outside of my boxers dripping with precum and hard as a diamond.

Suddenly he leans down and takes my entire dick in his mouth…i almost scream in pleasure…his tounge running along the sensitive head of my cock, his throat tightening as he takes me all the way…

At this point I’m leaned back, seat almost all the way reclined, my eyes closed enjoying the absolute best head I have ever received. I’m not embarrassed to say anything that within 2 minutes I’m telling him I’m going to cum. That doesn’t stop him, instead he grabs my balls with his other hand and takes me deep into his throat again. I moan so loud the people in the park must have heard as I release stream and stream of cum down his throat.

After what felt like minutes but was probably only seconds he pulls his mouth off my dick as it starts to soften. He licks up and down cleaning every trace of cum, eventually sitting back up in the seat and showing me the remnants of my load on his tounge before swallowing the remainder and giving me a confident smile.

I sit there in complete disbelief. I can’t believe that just happened. The pangs of guilt immediately beginning to surface. I put the chair back up to normal and say “wow man I can’t believe I came that fast, I’m so sorry”

This dude, cool as a cucumber tells me I have nothing to worry about and tells me how hot it was hearing me moan so loud. I instantly turn back into awkward mode and ask him if I should just take him home. He says sure and we again make small talk about how good he was at giving head.

After I dropped him off I deleted the app again not thinking I would ever do that again. Not that it wasn’t amazing but fuck I’m married, straight, I can’t be getting head from random internet dudes in lakeside parks.

Cue a month later and here I am, getting hard thinking about the feeling of his lips at the base of my cock…

I just downloaded the app again, and sure enough guess who was the first one to message me…”Hey dude, long time no talk…”

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/8si3tg/mm_first_time_xposted_gaystoriesgonewild