[mff] True tellings of my sexual awakening Part2

*For obvious reasons this is just a fantasy and everybody involved in it is over the age of 18. Any time an age is referenced that is not 18, it is obviously a typo that slipped past and should read 18. I have also changed the names of my cousins just to be safe.

Preface: Tori and Kirsten are my cousins who I spent a great amount of time with as a boy/teenager/young adult. When I was just coming of sexual age, one of the first girls I noticed was Tori. Tori is five years older than me and is tall (5’10” as of writing this) and blonde, unlike anyone else in her family. Kirsten is nine months older than me, average height (5’6” as of writing this) and brunette.*
[Part 1 Here](https://www.reddit.com/r/eroticliterature/comments/88w9u6/mff_true_tellings_of_my_sexual_awakening_part1/)

I did this with Tori’s underwear until she moved out of the house. I was 14 when my buffet of womanly scented underwear just cut off immediately. I didn’t know what to do with myself. It never even crossed my mind that Kirsten’s underwear might smell similar. Tori’s thongs were just magical! I remember thinking that I could try Kirsten’s but ew, it’s Kirsten. Since she and I were much closer it felt so much more wrong and weird. So what I did in the mean time was wait til Tori came back from college and brought home all of her dirty laundry and I would take the smelliest pair and put it in a ziplock bag, sucking all of the air out. It was so pungent. I remember it got more and more pungent over time. I wish I could smell like that. I wanted to make that smell.

From 10-14 I figured out a LOT more about sexuality. I started producing cum. I understood what a pussy is. I started watching porn. This was still back when you needed a friend with a VHS tape or floppy drive. The first time I saw a bukkake, I was shocked. I was in awe. I was jealous of the girl. I didn’t know what gay was until about 13 I think and saw the bukkake at 11. I remember looking at all of those dicks and the girl just going at them one by one by one. This was when cumonherface.com was still a thing. I became fascinated by cum. I loved the way it looked on a girl’s smiling face, her tits, her hair, everywhere. I loved watching the big, white cocks shoot loads and loads of cum all over a girl just eagerly awaiting its spray. I thought about what cum could do, where it could go, what I could do with MY cum… I remember when I saw a creampie for the first time. I thought it was so weird that you would WANT to cum inside a pussy when you could just go on her face. Why wouldn’t you cum on her face? That’s so weird. I stumbled upon fetish porn as well. There was a website called nylonfeet.com (I think) that had women in stockings and pantyhose posing their toes for the camera. That’s odd. I didn’t really think feet were anything special. I clicked around then returned to google and typed in “girls feet” and found a picture of a girl’s feet with cum on them. Cum on feet?! Ok, now it’s getting weird… but I was intrigued. I discovered anal when at a sleepover with friends. A bunch of 12 year old boys gathered around a computer at 2:00am saw a picture of two girls with a double dildo in their asses. Why would you put anything in your butt?! What the heck! Dozens of pictures later, there was a girl with cum dripping out of her ass. I thought something was wrong with me because cum started coming out of my dick around all of my friends so I ran to the bathroom. How’d that happen? I squeezed my dick and more and more came out and I caught it with my hand so it didn’t fall to the floor of my friend’s bathroom. I stood there staring at it and recalled all of the women with their mouths filled with it smiling. I brought my hand to my face, stuck my tongue out, and touched it. It didn’t taste like anything at first. I licked it clean off of my hand and played with it with my tongue. I felt like one of the girls from the videos. I swallowed it and then came out of the bathroom. This was big. I felt like one of those girls.

I want to get back to the feet thing, though. I thought it was weird that someone would want to cum on feet instead of the girl’s smiling face or her boobs. I went to altavista (old search engine) and typed in girls feet and found a section on altavista’s website where you could filter images. One filter was “heels” and sure enough, there were loads of pictures of womens’ high heels. There were regular heels, stilettos, pumps, wedges, whatever kind of shoe with a heel, there were pictures of them. I clicked and saw a girl smelling a high heel without a foot in it and again had an “ew gross” opinion about it. That’s just weird. Why do people do this? And why am I still looking at it?
Tori’s sophomore year of college was a real drag for me. She only came home a few times and with less dirty clothes each time. I needed her smell in my nostrils. I was going crazy. When I was 14 almost 15 I finally convinced myself to see what Kirsten smelled like. She was at band practice til 5:30 and I was off the bus at 4:30 giving me about an hour and a half of being there alone until anyone got home. I began prowling. I went through her room and found where she kept her clean underwear. A lot of thongs and some panties. I was rummaging about and found a pair of high heels. Thinking back to my altavista search, I smelled them. What a weird smell. I don’t get it. I proceeded to the bathroom for the dirty clothes hamper and holy. Shit. I found the motherload. There were so many thongs in there! I picked up one and it was hard and cracking. That doesn’t seem normal. Tori’s never did that. I smelled it and felt like I got hit with a bucket of ice-water. I was shocked. THIS smell was different. THIS smell was intense. It felt like I could feel it in my entire body. What the heck??? I picked up this crusty (yes I know it’s a gross word but it’s accurate) pair of underwear and looked at all of this white-ish/yellow-ish crust that was covering the bottom of the front triangle. What is this stuff? Why does it smell so much more and so much better? I touched the tip of my tongue to it and was amazed at how strong the taste was with just a quick peck. I began picking at it with my fingernails and ate some of it and holy crap it tasted amazing. It was just like Tori’s only stronger. I knew I was set for a few more years. I just wish I could make that same substance come out of me. What did her stuff and my stuff taste like together? I had so many questions. I went and got a clean thong and immediately put it on to admire myself in the mirror. I can take it a step further, I told myself. I strutted to Tori’s room. She and I are similar sizes. I found a pair of jeans she left behind, some high heels, and returned to gaze upon my girlish figure. My ass looks as good as Kirsten’s does in these jeans! So now when I look at MY ass, it’s like I’m looking at HER ass. And now I know what HER ass looks like in a thong! I was starting to view Kirsten for the woman she was becoming. I buttoned the button of the jeans, put my dick and balls through the zipper, and then jacked off as fast as I could – again covering my face and chest so that I could see from my stomach down. Watching this beautiful cock feverishly stroke away and balls flapping against these tight girly jeans was too much. I came so fast that I didn’t make it to the toilet to get rid of my cum. It landed on the counter and the sink and I had to quickly clean it up. I put everything away and went back to watching TV when everyone got home. I liked being the girl.

*There’s still more to this that I will post if anyone shows interest again*

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