Need to con[F]ess something

So…I’m a [28F] and have been with my husband [41M] for 10 years, married for 8. We have 2 little girls. Let me take you back to the start…

I graduated from HS and went to work in a restaurant, was seeing several guys, and one introduced me to this guy who had just gotten divorced. He was a jackass, couldn’t stand him, but child support had taken his license, and he needed a driver, so I went to work for him. Couple months down the road, he was going camping in the town where my sister lived, so I drove him, dropped him off and went for a visit. My sister ditched me, I went to dinner with him, we had a conversation about casual sex, penis sizes, I may have alluded that I was more experienced than I really was, etc… Couldn’t go back to my sisters, so 18 year old me, went where this guy was camping, had some mixed drinks, and crawled into his tent with him, we were both fully clothed, and he promptly passed out. Drunk little me decides shortly that I might like to give this 31 year old guy a ride, so I started kissing on him. Well, it woke him up. I was quickly out of my shirt, but held on to my pj pants for dear life he was more aggressive than any other guy I’d ever been with, and as I was so young, it was only 3 or 4, and they were high school boys. I was scared that he would be too big, as I’m tiny, petite, and he’s over 6 and a half feet tall and a construction worker…I told him “don’t break me” and gave up the pants. HOLY FUCK…Not only was it the biggest I’d ever had, but he had skills. That was it, I was done. Moved right in and that was that. The standard fights came, and there was a temporary break up…a guy we saw all the time on jobs, had been trying to get in my pants, so I went to his house, well, he and his roommate were there, I got drunk, he tried to fuck me, but cried and apologized that his pecker was so small (I seriously couldn’t feel anything), so I ended up doing the roommate. Turns out that penis that I had and thought was so big…was pretty average. Anyhow, we got back together, married kids…jobs, etc. I’ve ended up having lots of offers over the years, and I love to fuck, so I’ve taken some up on it, and found that my dear hubby is really on the small side of average, and I really prefer big…Like sore for 2 days big. But I stay. I’ve told him several times in the last year that I want a divorce, but I always go back and stay…

TL/DR Thought my husband had a big unit, he doesn’t, i get it elsewhere when it suits me, not sure if I should stay or go for the kids.

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/7qxjwe/need_to_confess_something