I’m going to try and keep this brief.
At age 12 I started delving into the wonderful world of sex. I vividly remember reading (and getting caught) stories/erotica on myfirsttime.com, a old site. Eventually I moved onto to sites like literotica before eventually delving into full on porn.
While not as extreme as some of my fellow specimen, I definitely watched a wide array of categories. First time, BJ, Public Sex, Milf you name it. Pretty vanilla in topic but it definitely was a ton.
From 8th-12th grade (Age 14-18) I watched porn and maaturbated at least 3x a week. Despite being your common developing/restless teenager, porn became somewhat of an escape for me. I was bullied hard throughout late middle school and into early high. Add on depression, an unstable home life and shyness and you had a recipe for uneasiness. Porn/Masturbation allowed me to escape and put my feelings into something non violent (although destructive as a habit in hindsight).
As I’m a year removed from HS now I can confidently say I sat on my ass throughout HS. By the end of my senior year I was 75lbs overweight, still shy and I had pretty much shot my libido. Years of porn/masturbation had/have killed through desensitization and the abuse of a habit.
By the end of my senior year my libido was gone, I had no sexual desire and I was (and still am) suffering from PSSD (Depression med after effects) and PIED (porn induced erectile dysfunction). I swore I needed to change.
Today is June 14th. I can confidently say that I have changed. I’m 75lbs lighter and am aiming to drop 10 more. My confidence is back and multiple months of porn free usage has cleared my mind and helped me focus on other things like lifting and career goals. I masturbate when my body tells me now, which I’ll admit is hardly often.
Noneless, I experienced my first orgasm in a long long time tonight. For awhile now I’ve been flatlining hard, which is an incredible confidence killer. Tonight my body responded and told me it was ready. And I did it (::
I’m going to keep continuing on this path. No where near recovery (I say I’m around 20%) but I’ve definitely seen results. Still suffering from ED (rejection, PSSD and PIED all have played a factor) which I hope one day to cure.
Thanks for listening (: I hope there are others out there who share the same story!
P.S. moderation is key!
P.S.S yes I’m a virgin
Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/6h5oo3/m_i_experienced_my_first_orgasm_in_over_6_months