[FM] So I cheated on my boyfriend…

Kinda long, sorry!

Some boring context: I love my bf but things are complicated. We have been together since I was 14 and he was 15, and that was almost 9 years ago. Needless to say, I had no experience with relationships or sex except for with him. I was always really skinny as a teen and my bf was too, we were kinda nerdy and we were in love when we were just kids. Things have changed in the last few years though. It’s like now in the last couple years i have sort of blossomed physically, my braces came off and I developed curves and my body transformed, and I think it makes my bf uncomfortable. I like the attention I get from guys at school and stuff like that, even though I never acted on it before, but I have to admit it’s strange because I never used to get any attention from guys before… at all! Now I admit it does excite me when guys flirt with me. I know it’s wrong but I guess I’ve changed and I like the changes :). He isn’t really the same guy either: kinda chubby now and not in shape, doesn’t try, eats really bad food, and as for myself I work hard on my body to stay fit. I try to cook good meals for him but he snacks all night long. He also doesn’t work, stays home and smokes pot most of the time, makes some money from fixing computers and selling small amounts of weed but otherwise he isn’t really doing much with his life. I’m a junior in college and I work 20-30 hours a week to make ends meet for both of us and it’s exhausting. So in a way we are drifting apart and we both know it. The worst part of our relationship is that he won’t talk to me about anything anymore, he is depressed, and whenever I try to talk about things he gets angry. So for the past two years or so I’ve been feeling kinda down about us.

When we have sex its very gentle and not really with any passion and I don’t orgasm unless i use my imagination. Physically he isnt a great lover and he doesnt excite me much anymore, probably mostly because he doesn’t even try. He doesn’t have a big penis at all, but that never bothered me even though he is super insecure about it. What bothers me more is how out of shape he has become and how he doesn’t care. I think he takes me for granted. And whenever I dress nice or sexy he criticizes me so it makes me want to not bother either. I never really planned on cheating on him but I fantasized about it sometimes.

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So anyway my bf and I were at a party at one his older brother’s friends parents house last summer, there were about 100 people there. My bf got super drunk and ended up passing out in the basement while a bunch of them were playing video games. I was upstairs talking to some friends from high school but they split at one point and I ended up kinda alone and bored. So after a bit this guy who is a friend of my bf’s friend’s brother who i only met when we arrived at the party started chatting me up, he was really friendly and good looking and funny so we talked for a long time, with some flirting.

Eventually we went up on the roof of the house to smoke a joint together and the party was winding down it was around 2am and my bf was still in the basement where most of the other people were by that point. anyway we smoked the joint and talked for a long time, before long we ended up closer and next thing you know we were kissing. so we made out for a while and he started touching my breasts and i liked it so i just reached for his dick and was rubbing it through his jeans while we kissed. I didn’t know what I was doing or why, I never cheated on my bf even once before, but it all happened so fast and I was nervous. But I was really excited and things have been kinda bad with my bf lately for lots of reasons so I just went with it even though I knew I would feel guilty. But this guy is like the opposite of my bf, so tall and athletic and confident while my bf is kinda a hipster and insecure all the time, kinda chubby and just so different. So anyway we kept kissing and touching for a while and then i unzipped his fly and slipped my hand in and starting squeezing his cock, then he got up and without saying anything we went back to the window and went inside, then he locked the door to the bedroom and sat on the futon.

I kneeled in front of him and opened his jeans and took out his cock, he has a really big dick, so thick and long and the head was so huge. He is circumcised and I never saw a dick like that before in real life. So I just starting licking him and making his head wet with my tongue, it got even bigger it was enormous with a big ridge down the back. I really worked him hard, for some reason I wanted to give him the best blowjob he ever had so i was tonguing his balls and doing everything i can and trying to take all of him in my mouth and everything, i was trying so hard to please him. I wanted to really experience him since I knew what I was doing was wrong anyway, so I tried to really enjoy his body. He took a long time to cum and I was really into it, and he was iso ncredibly big and hard that i wanted to sit on it right there but I knew I couldn’t do that. He asked me to let him fuck me but I took off my top and gave him a titty fuck instead, looking up at him and begging him to cum all over me. I wanted him to cum so badly so he wouldnt take me and fuck me because i was so scared to do that in the party because i knew i would make so much noise if that thing was inside me. i liked it more because we were so quiet and alone up there but if he fucked me the whole house would have heard me. so i just focused on making him cum for me and so he finally did and i loved it, he came all over my mouth and tits, he came so much, i swallowed as much as i could but it was so much. It was amazing and so hot i really loved it.

He asked me for my number, but i gave him a fake email instead and he left, so i just went back down to the basement afterwards and my bf was still passed out so i just chilled there until he came to and we went home. He had no idea obviously.
Anyway I never stopped thinking about him since then, and after some really tough times around my birthday in early December I decided to contact him on Facebook and just push limits online. He was really happy to hear from me, he said he had been thinking about me too and was hoping I would try to contact him. We talked over FB for a week or so and it was usually hot conversations, like reliving that night and talking about what we would do if ever we decided to meet again. Sometimes I would take baths and re-read our conversations and it would make me cum so easily. He also admitted that he masturbated while we talked on FB. Finally we started talking seriously about meeting up. I don’t know why, but I just thought it was inevitable and we both wanted it so badly. I had a christmas party for my work that my bf wasn’t going to attend, and we agreed I would leave early and go over to his place afterwards.

Just for more context, this is the outfit I wore to the party: https://i.imgur.com/3g8DAgS.jpg

When I showed up to his place around 11pm, we started kissing right away, right at the door. He told he would tear me apart the minute I walked in his door, but I didn’t expect him to be so aggressive. I loved it! We practically tore our clothes off one another and got down to it right away. The first time we had sex we used a condom, I was giving him head while he was in a big chair and when we were ready I rolled it on him and the condom was stretched so thin and to get it over the head wasnt easy. Just doing that was so exciting. I rode him slowly for about 10 minutes, adjusting to his size, going really easy, and when he started to cum I pushed down on him and he was all the way inside me. Such a wonderful feeling. We kissed and he licked and sucked my breasts while I bounced in his lap, it was so intense and loving, I really can’t express in words how wonderful it felt to be in his arms.

We had sex again later on and it lasted much much longer, over an hour, and we used a condom at first but then in the heat of the action the condom was getting uncomfortable so I asked him to remove it. He fucked me hard and deep, I was creaming and so wet, he even had to stop several times to clean me because I was too wet. That never happened to me before. I pounded the hell out of me doggystyle at one point and when I came I thought I would pass out. Finally, when he was about to cum he asked me where I wanted it and I told him inside me so he did. I wrapped my legs and arms around him and held him close while he filled me up. And it was so incredibly sexy I never felt so taken by a man before, I really really loved the feeling of his cum inside me. We had sex again in the morning, much more slow and loving, so different, and he came inside me again. By then it felt right. I literally didn’t know sex could be that good, that intense, and that wonderful. Best night of my life, I didn’t want it to end.

When I left his place it was 9am. My bf was really upset when I got hom, he called me many times that night but I didn’t reply, I just told him before I left the party that I was going to spend the night at my coworker’s place and I fell asleep. He doesn’t really seem to suspect anything, or at least he hasn’t said anything to give me that impression, but who knows, he never really talks anyway. I don’t feel guilty though.

Now all I do is think about what will happen if we do it again. I want to. I know I am a bad person and I should just leave my bf, but it’s complicated and I feel responsible for him somewhat. I don’t really know how to feel about all of this.

All I know is that it was the most exciting night of my life and I think about it all the time. I’ve never been fucked like that before in my life and I really really loved every minute of it. I really did.

So that’s it :) Thanks for reading!

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/5lnogf/fm_so_i_cheated_on_my_boyfriend