[Update] Rey

It’s been a while since I posted anything here, so I figured I would give you an update. As some of you have asked, and I’m sure a few figured out on your own, the asexual girlfriend in a lot of my posts off of this sub is in fact Rey. I’ve always kept my profile open because I felt that context and learning about an author increases the value of the story, and some of you kindly contacted me inquiring about the situation.

While our sex life was amazing in the beginning, thus the stories, she slowly slipped into lower and lower sex drives. At this point, she virtually never wants any kind of sex and will go out of her way to avoid it.

When I started writing on here, the last time we’d had sex was August. That, and the last few times we’d had sex before it (which takes us back into 2014) were “just hurry up and get it over with” sex. As of now, the only time we’ve had sex since last August was at a convention about two months ago. That was also “hurry and finish” sex, done more out of tradition than any sense of wanting it, and genuinely seemed physically uncomfortable for her. That had the terrible effects of both whetting my pallet and making me relive sexual feelings, making me absolutely crave sex again, and solidified that sex with Rey will probably never be downright enjoyable again.

The long and short of it is Rey basically doesn’t want sex. Ever.

To cope with that, I did a number of things over the last few years. I tried to become more appealing to her by working out. I tried putting the blame on myself and pushed myself to be better than I ever had been in bed (as much as one can do so without a partner). Neither of those had any effect though.

I started writing, mostly to relive the memories. You guys seemed to like it though, so I kept going. I really enjoyed it. It was a great way to express those pent up emotions, and getting feedback was genuinely fun.

The thing is, I ran out of stories with Rey. We’ve only had sex maybe sixty times in nearly four years, so there can really only be so many fantastic experiences to share. There are a few that I haven’t told, but I hope you’ll understand that those are just for us.

So I started writing about Bailey. The thing is, it felt hollow. For as fun as Bailey was, and as incredibly erotic as our relationship was, I never felt remotely the same about her as I felt about Rey. Stories about Bailey were just fucking. I even had five or six more lined up, but I honestly don’t care to write them. I don’t enjoy it, I don’t feel anything when I do, and I think that really translates into a poorer story for you.

So, to stop beating around the bush, I think this is the end for me writing here. I’m trying to channel my newfound hobby into writing erotic fiction, if only to vent, but I won’t be writing anymore true stories unless they’re about Rey. If something happens on that front, you may very well be the first to know. In the last couple of years though, I’ve learned never to hope anything will happen.

Thank you all for your support and community. You got me through some really tough times.

Source: reddit.com/r/gonewildstories/comments/4r6qc8/update_rey