Finally having fun exploring my sexuality (m/m) ( long, but worth it)

To fully appreciate this story, I will give a short background of myself. I am 20 years old and have within the past year started exploring sexually with men. All of my sexual firsts were with women, and I enjoyed and continue to enjoy my experiences with females. However, within the past year I have had urges that I could no longer ignore to experience sexual interactions with men. Although I have only recently started acting out on these feelings, looking back I could tell that they were always there. From wondering what was under my basketball coach's gym shorts to picking a porno based on the male, the signs were present. Like many other things in life, I believe that sexual attraction is a scale. I don't believe there is any way you can group all men and women and label each one as straight or gay; it seems quite ridiculous to me. In regards to myself, I would say I am 75/25 in favor of women. I certainly feel attracted to certain men, but could never actually see myself being romantically involved with a man. Since I've started acting out on my feelings towards men I have had about 4 good experiences and 4 bad ones. The good ones were certainly fun, but the bad ones had me questioning what on Earth I was doing. And that brings me to my most recent string of experiences.

One night I was studying alone and was feeling particularly horny. So, I logged onto a Manhunt account that I had made prior and started browsing. Now, I'm not quite sure why, but I only find myself attracted to men older than myself, ranging from about 30 – 60 (I know, a wide range). I'm not sure whether it's the experience or the maturity or something else but there's something about an attractive older man that drives me crazy. I decide to message an older man, let's call him Bill (not his real name), who I find particularly attractive. He's 52, pretty muscular, fair skin, a tight stomach, 5'10, bald with a soul patch, and has a thick cock. Just what I'm looking for, and probably out of my league. For comparison, I am 5'9, also pretty muscular, have a little excess fat around my waist, brown hair and eyes, and have a fairly normal, unimpressive penis. Luckily, he messaged me back. We chat a bit, things are going great, and after figuring out we are both free later that night we decide to meet up. He gives me an address and in about an hour and a half I head over to his house.

As I'm driving the ten minute drive to his house I can already feel myself getting hard. I start touching myself through my jeans in anticipation of what is to come. I get to his place and open Manhunt again to let him know I am here. While I was driving, however, I received a message from him asking if it was okay if a friend of his joined. I didn't like this at all and probably should have turned my car back on and drove home, but my horniness got the best of me and I replied back letting him know I was here and that adding an extra person was okay. He greets me at the front door and he is even sexier than the photos we exchanged. After going through formal introductions he guides me to the floor he lives on and we both take a seat on the couch. I ask who his friend was and if I could see a picture of him before he came over. He showed me a photo and I was disappointed to find out that the friend was only a few years older than me. Like I said before, I only am sexually attracted to men older than myself, so he didn't fit my type. My disappointment quickly faded to the back of my mind when Bill grabbed my head and started making out with me. His tongue was so much stronger than mine, something I find so hot about men that isn't there with women. It got me hard again. His hands reached under my shirt, feeling my body, so I followed suit and did the same. He was muscular and strong and I loved feeling his arms and chest. This lasted for a few minutes before Bill got a call that his friend was here.

Bill's friend, let's call him Mark, came up the stairs and inside the house. He was a little taller than me with fair skin and brown hair, but was really scrawny. Trying to use gay lingo, I guess Mark would be considered a twink. He was certainly nice, but I was most definitely not attracted to him and I knew this was going to be a problem. Leaving crossed my mind, but I decided to stick it out and see what happened.

Bill suggest we all go in the hot tub located on his deck. Now I was glad I decided to stay. We went out into the frigid cold, stripped completely, and jumped in the hot tub. It felt incredible and was such a nice contrast for the cold New England fall night. After a few minutes of casual conversation, Bill decided we should establish ground rules. I agreed. We decided we would stick to oral, which I was thrilled about. Not only do I love giving and receiving oral sex to both women and, as I'd found out recently, men, I had never had anal intercourse with a male and had no intentions of doing so that night. Receiving or giving anal sex with a male simply does not interest me at this point in my life. After coming to an agreement Bill slid over to me and started forcefully making out with me again. I moved my hands back to his chest and started playing with his rock hard nipples. I moved my hand through the water down to his cock. He wasn't hard yet, but I could tell my presence down there excited him. Bill moved his hand to my hard penis and started feeling me up as well. I was in heaven. When my hand left Bill's now-hard penis, Mark quickly took my place and began feeling up Bill. In response, Bill began making out with Mark, leaving me alone. At this point, I wasn't sure what to do, so I went back to feeling Bill's arms to avoid having to do what I was avoiding, being sexual with Mark. At this point, Mark pulled his head away from Bill and looked directly at me. I didn't know what to do. I didn't want to be rude and completely deny him, so when Mark leaned in to kiss me I let him. After a few seconds I pulled away and decided to feel up Mark with my hands instead, letting Mark and Bill make out again.

Mark was nowhere near the body type of Bill, and I wasn't really sure how to feel him up. In hopes of him not noticing my reluctance, I went back to feeling Bill up. Mark started touching my dick and although I can't complain of the sensation, it just didn't feel the same coming from him. Eventually, I worked up the courage to feel Bill's cock. He was soft, but from what I could tell with my hands underwater he was slightly bigger than me but definitely not as girthy as Bill's penis.

At this point Bill turned to me and told me to stand up. I listened and rose so that the water was up to my shins. Bill came closer to me and before I could even think his mouth was on my penis. I instantly cocked my head back in pleasure as the sensation of Bill's warm mouth carried throughout my body. He licked my shaft up and down ever so slowly, almost as if to tease me. After about a minute, Bill pulled away and motioned for Mark to copy his actions on me. I wasn't about to deny a blowjob, so I didn't try to stop it. Instead, Mark began to suck my dick, this time a little bit faster paced than Bill. I enjoyed it, but it was nowhere near as visually and emotionally stimulating as Bill's blowjob.

Another minute goes by when Bill suggest we take the fun back to his bed room. We all reluctantly climb out of the blissful hot tub, dry ourselves off, and head back inside. Bill motions us to the bedroom, and I could tell that none of us were not hard any longer, most likely from the cold. When we get on the bed, Mark and I swap off giving head to Bill. I have to admit, this was extremely hot. Seeing Bill in absolute pleasure as two younger men felt his muscles and sucked his cock turned me on and made me as horny as I could ever imagine being. While we are taking turns licking his balls and deep throating him, Bill reaches to his desk and pulls out poppers. Being inexperienced, I have never done poppers, let alone be in the presence of them. Bill takes a whiff in each nostril, passes it to Mark who does them, and then hands it to me. Despite the urge to try it, I explain that I've never done poppers before and decline. Thankfully they didn't seem to care, and Mark and I went back to pleasuring Bill.

Bill then stops Mark and I and tells us all to lie down in a circle so we can each give head and receive head at the same time. I make sure that I am sucking Bill's dick as I don't have the desire to give oral to Mark. We all get situated and get to business. I love taking all of Bill in my mouth, only taking breaths to massage and lick his balls. Mark does a good job of blowing me, but I am in the zone of doing all I can to please Bill.

Unexpectedly, Bill tells us to rotate the other way. Uh oh. Mark stops sucking me and heads down to pleasure Bill. Bill follows suit and is now sucking my dick. I can't help but look in awe as Bill masterfully works his tongue and changes his movements on my dick. It feels unbelievable. Sensing that Mark was getting anxious, I reluctantly assume my position with my face right next to his dick. He is soft, which makes me even more reluctant as I now have to work this man's penis that I am not attracted to to a full erection. I begin sucking on Mark's penis, trying to get him hard again. I start panicking when nothing seems to be happening. After a few minutes Mark gets up, apologizes, and excuses himself to the bathroom. At this point I feel terrible. While I certainly wasn't attracted to Mark I wanted us all to have a good time, and I couldn't do that for him. Or so I thought. Bill looks at me and tells me something must be up with Mark because he was not getting hard when Bill was blowing him. I was extremely relieved to find out it wasn't solely me causing this problem. Bill gets up to check on Mark, and comes back rather quickly saying Mark was going to take a few more minutes but instructed Bill and I continue.

We start making out again and then Bill lies me on my back. He places his mouth on my throbbing cock and my toes instantly curl and my head slams back onto the mattress behind me. I'm in visual paradise as Bill takes all of me down his throat, occasionally looking up at me to see my reactions. A few minutes of this occurs when Bill backs away and lies down on his back with his head on the pillows behind him. I take this as a signal to begin reciprocating, but instead Bill instructs me to straddle his chest so that he can suck on my cock while he lies down. I obey his commands. I've never done this position before but instantly love it. I feel in a position of power as Bill struggles to lift his head off of the pillow and take me inside of him. He then starts grabbing my extremely slick penis and beings to jack me off. I let out fairly loud "oh fuck yeah". Bill responds by jacking me off at a faster pace and telling me he wants me to cum. Having always had difficulty ejaculating from blowjobs from both men and women, I knew I would have no trouble this time as Bill furiously stroked my now-aching penis.

30 seconds later I can't hold it in anymore. I alert Bill that I am going to cum and after he tells me do it I absolutely explode. I have never cum with such velocity before in my life. I cum on the sheets, I cum on the pillow, I even cum on the headboard. My state of pure bliss immediately turns to embarrassment as I profusely apologize for making a mess. Bill can only laugh as he says that was so hot and he's never seen somebody cum like that before. I still can't help but apologize as he reassures me it is no big deal at all and that that's what the washing machine was for.

Suddenly Mark, who I had completely forgot about, walks back in the room. Bill and I both seem kind of startled at his presence after the mess I just created. Mark's still naked and still soft as Bill explains with laughter what just happened. Mark doesn't seem to have too much of a reaction. Bill then looks at both of us and says, "Okay, well now it's my turn. Which one of you wants to finish me off?" Mark and I take one look at each other when Mark suddenly darts back to the bathroom. I look at Bill and jokingly say, "well I guess that answers that". Bill once again assumes the position he was just in when I came. Instead of straddling him, however, I eagerly go back to his penis. Now, in all of my previous experiences with men, my least favorite part has been when the other person has ejaculated. It's not that I don't want to give my partner pleasure, it's that I'm a little tentative about the semen itself. I don't even like my own, let alone another man's. But something felt different with Bill. The thought of where his ejaculation would end up did not cross my mind as I began to suck his dick. I quickened my pace and started using my hand, which I could tell by Bill's moans and grunts he greatly enjoyed. Within no time Bill exclaimed that he was going to cum. My usual reaction would have been to back away at this point, but I decided to keep my mouth on Bill's penis. I let Bill cum in my mouth, and although it wasn't super enjoyable, I can't say I disliked it. I took squirt after squirt in my mouth when i finally couldn't keep it all in anymore and some dripped out of my mouth and onto Bill's cock and balls. I took my mouth off his softening penis and motion to him that I would like to spit somewhere as I did not feel comfortable swallowing. Bill grabs me a tissue and I spit his semen out. Bill says "wow, that was awesome" and I have to agree. Despite my negative experiences with Mark present, the ending with Bill was absolutely fantastic. We both get dressed and head out to the living room to see Mark sitting on the couch. He stands up and apologizes to us and Bill reassures him that it was not his fault and sometimes these things just happen. After a little more talking I explain that it's getting late and I should go (I still had a test to study for) and put on my shoes to leave. Bill gave Mark a goodbye kiss and Mark walked out the door. I took a little while to put on my shoes and jacket, but eventually gave Bill a goodbye kiss and headed out as well. Luckily I was parked right outside so I didn't have to interact with Mark, who was already out of sight when I made it outside.

Fast forward a few days later and I'm feeling horny again. I didn't have a steady girl at this point and wasn't having the best of luck hooking up on the weekends, so I logged back onto Manhunt. My heart jumped when I saw Bill online. I messaged him explaining that I had a fun time and that I would like to do it again, under one condition: it was just the two of us. Bill agreed, and we immediately began chatting about what we would like to do together. I explained how I greatly enjoyed making out and swapping head, but that I would love to 69. With both men and women there is almost nothing, sometimes not even intercourse with a women, that beats 69'ing for me. I can't get enough of the body contact and mutual pleasure being given by both partners. Thankfully Bill explains that he enjoys 69'ing too. We both couldn't meet up that day but decide to meet up a few days later.

After a few days of thinking about what was come to stopping myself from acting on it, the night finally comes where I meet up with Bill again. I drive to his house, Bill let's me in, and leads me upstairs. I walk into his living room to see the fire roaring, a drink on the table, and porn on the TV. "Wow", I exclaimed as I walked in. Bill offered me a drink but I declined, sticking to my rule of not accepting drinks from people I don't really know. He understands, takes a sip of his whiskey, and makes his way towards me. We skip the small talk this time. We make out, tongues down each other's throats, standing right in front of the fire. Bill immediately takes my shirt off and feels me up and plays with my nipples, which I love. I let him do this for a while before I begin doing the same. I slide my hands over his thick arms and squeeze his muscles. I run my hands across his chest and over his stomach. Bill is completely hairless except his soul patch. It's something I'm not used, but I find it hot on Bill. After expressing to me over chat that he prefers I shave my pubes completely as opposed to just trimmed, I oblige. I still had hair on my arms, butt, and legs, but my balls and pubic area are completely shaven for this night.

Attempting to speed up the process, Bill takes off his shirt. While he's doing so, I reach for his cock over the sweatpants he is wearing. Bill's already hard, and I get extremely hard too feeling his thick, meaty cook through his pants. Bill undoes my belt, unbuttons my jeans, and has his hand in my pants feeling my cock. I too reach inside of his pants and get to feel the skin of his long, hard shaft.

Bill then puts his hand on my shoulder and guides me down to my knees. I know what to do. I pull Bill's pants down and his cock flings out towards me. I grab it with my hand and begin kissing the head. Bill reaches for his drink and takes another sip of his whiskey. I find it so hot having my mouth on his cock while he drinks. He puts the drink down and moves his hands to my head, directing my speed and depth of his cock in my mouth. Eventually I'm taking all of Bill's cock in my mouth and he's moaning with pleasure. I have already pulled my pants to my knees and have been jerking myself off this whole time.

After a few gags by myself and a few more moans by Bill, he signals me to lie down on my back. He lifts my legs up and pulls my jeans off. He then makes his way to my cock and begins sucking. He's so so good at it in ways that I can only imagine come with experience. He's an expert at reading my body movements, knowing when to switch up the pace and when to stop all together and play with my balls and nipples. He even rubs the head of my penis on his soul patch, which is a mixture of pain and pleasure I've never felt before but quickly got addicted to.

A few minutes of this tantalizing blowjob passes when he angles his body position so that we are antiparallel to one another. Without saying a word I begin working on his dick. He got soft while blowing me, so I worked on bringing him back to life by taking his head in between my lips, putting some pressure, and swirling my tongue around. I can tell he likes it as he quickly gets hard again. We 69 for a few minutes when Bill grabs the poppers. He takes it and then offers it to me. This time, I decide I feel comfortable enough to try, so Bill teaches me how to use them. I take a tiny sniff in each nostril and we both go back to work. He does the thing with soul patch again after seeing my reaction previously. Between that and the occasional deep throat I am in heaven. I go back to sucking Bill's cock, picking up the pace a bit. I realized, however, that the poppers did nothing to me. When Bill takes another pooper break, I decide to try again. This time I don't hold back and take two big whiffs in each nostril. Whoa. I instantly feel light headed and feel like I need to go back to sucking Bill's dick. I do, this time with more force and speed than before. It felt so right putting all I had into sucking Bill's dick, moving so fast and with such force.

Well, I must have been going too fast, as Bill told me to slow down and just spend some time licking the head. I listen to him and severely slow down the pace. 69'ing happens for a little while longer when Bill stops blowing me to ask if I'm close. I tell him the truth and that I wasn't, so he tells me to stop sucking him and lay down. Here we go. I now have an incredible view of Bill working his magic on my cock. He does everything I love and I moan and moan and moan some more at his movements. He's so good at finding the spots that drive me wild and switching between them.

He asks if I'm close, and although it feels so good I'm not there yet. Another minute goes by, he asks again, and again I say not yet. Like I said before I love blowjobs but I have a hard time cumming from them. Eventually I just tell Bill that he's going to have to jack me off to completion. He doesn't seem to mind as he watches me whither with pleasure and grunt and moan as he strokes my throbbing cock. Now I'm getting close. He asks where I want to cum and without hesitation I say in his mouth. He immediately combines his stroking with licking of my head and I'm in total ecstasy. I last for about 20 seconds of this before I erupt in his mouth. If his mouth wasn't there to block my ejaculation I'm sure it would have made more of a mess than last time. I have one of the longest orgasms I've ever had as Bill has to wait a full minute before the last drop is out of my penis. Bill swallows my load and crawls up to make out with me. We kiss as a lay motionless, totally paralyzed from the intense orgasm I just had.

After coming to, I push Bill down to the ground and begin to make my way down to service him. I want to take my time, so I start sucking his nipples as I play with his balls. He lets out a few moans which drives me crazy. I slowly kiss my way down to his penis, which is standing at attention for me. I spend some time licking his balls, making him wait for the best part. Finally I move to his penis and take the head in my mouth. He gasps, which means I know he's loving every second. I take my sweet time licking the shaft and head before I abruptly deep throat this dick. "Of fuck!" Bill yells. I have him right where I want him. I deep throat until I feel like gagging and then I deep throat some more. I spend what seems like an eternity doing this without ever taking my mouth off his his penis. I love every second and I know Bill does too.

Finally Bill practically screams that he is going to cum. I pick up my pace, feel his cock pulsing in my mouth, and brace myself. Bill lets out a huge grunt as I feel warm semen fill my mouth in spurts. It keeps coming and keeps coming but I don't let it drip this time. Bill continues to orgasm as I move my mouth all the way down to the base. He can't control himself now and keeps yelling "Oh fuck! Oh fuck! Oh my god!" over and over.

When the orgasm stops, Bill collapses to the ground. I grab the towel that he specifically brought out for me and spit into it. Just like he did to me I go to make out with him, and he brings me closer as we kiss in total bliss of the orgasms we just had.

It's at this point I realize how amazing the sexual experience I just had was. Here's me and this this kind, caring, and extremely sexy man lying together in the middle of his living room with the warmth of the fire filling the room. For the first time I don't feel like getting up and running after having a sexual experience with a man. So I stay. And we remain by the fire for little longer, not saying a word to each other, but not needing to. I think we both realized what we just did was special, and I was more than okay letting it all soak in for a little while longer. I'm excited to do this again.

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