A bit of background first.
So, I (M, 30) have been in a pretty deep self discovery journey over the past few years. It all began with me listening to my then girlfriend (soon to become wife) talk many times over about the fact that she would like to try sex with other girls. Over time, that made me feel safe enough to question my own sexuality, and ultimately sent me down a long path of asking myself if I felt the same way about other men.
In parallel to that, I began to feel more and more curious to truly know what women felt during sex. I asked myself: how must it feel to be penetrated, or to have a vaginal orgasm? I have never not loved being a man during sex with my girlfriend, but at the same time what she felt seemed so fucking great and so different from what I felt… It was alluring, and I began to really want to have a taste of that, in addition to what I already had.
I eventually figured out that the best way to pursue this would be to engage in anal play, and so about 18 months ago I bought my first buttplug/prostate massager.