You are anxious but definitely not as scared as the first time. A month ago you could barely make yourself get out of the car, you sat there for nearly an hour before forcing yourself, one foot in front of the other, to his front door. You had met on Craig's List, he was looking for a newbie to suck him off and you were definitely that. It went ok, but it was awkward. He gave you good direction, both of you had fun, but afterward you didn't know what to do and you just bolted.
"This time will be different," you tell yourself as you walk those same steps to his front door. This time you notice how nice his house is. Not large but modern and expensive looking. You knock on the door and he quickly opens.
He smiles and says, "come on in." You are still getting used to the idea of looking at a man in a sexual way, but you can't help it now. He really is attractive. You feel the anxiety coming back and tell yourself, "No, I can't be scared of this." You repeat your mantra, "This time will be different."