The Story of J

He stopped short of asking his next question. Leaning back against the front window, she pushed her legs out straight. He slid his body closer. Shifting his left hand to rest on top of her right, he leaned forward, his face almost touching hers. Her head tilted down, her eyes rose to meet his. He bent forward, hesitated, their lips inches apart. The first kiss was a gentle questioning peck. Was she receptive to more? She bent her head slightly to her right. He slowly and gently kissed her again and again. Her eyes closed, her head fell back, as he pushed his mouth on to hers.

Her head burned, her heart raced and all her inhibitions disappeared. Arms lying limp at her sides, she became lost in his passions. His hands raced over her body, rising to cup a breast and pinch hard on a nipple. Pulling it up and out, then releasing it to spring back in. She sucked in hard when his hand pushed down between her legs driving fingers toward her wetness. She grabbed his wrist, trying to push him away, but it was too late. A finger punched it’s way in. Her legs went limp, her brain crackled, as one finger followed the other.

The Story of J

Fuck.

Fuck, fuck, fuck. Jenni wanted to scream.

It was all she could think of, slamming her fists down on the bed. Why the fuck me? Why was she the only one left at home to deal with the two of them? Why did her sisters have to leave? One after the other. Why did Carol move to Dallas? Why did Peter have to go off to LSU? Why did Will have to spend all the time at the camp? Why couldn’t she leave too? Why was she left to live through all the shit of her parents? Why?

Jenni could still hear her mom crying in the bathroom down the hall. Hear her fathers drunken rants from the living room. She thought of crawling out her bedroom widow the way she’d done so many times before and go for a swim. Immerse her body deep enough into the black water where all she would hear were the muffled sound of their fighting. All she wanted to do was run away and hide. To get as far away from them as she possibly could. But she new in the far recesses of her brain she would never get far enough.