When I got home, I walked straight upstairs, started a bath, and laid in the tub for over an hour recapping what I had just been through.
Mark was downstairs cooking and came to check on me a couple times and I was lucky to get out the couple words I said to him. I had so many thoughts and feeling rushing through my brain, my heart, and my body. My legs were still weak from everything Mary had done for me. My mind couldn’t stop thinking about how crazy this was and what Mark would think of me or if I should even tell him. My heart knew that waiting the 22 hours for my next massage was too long.
I finally came downstairs and had dinner with Mark. We talked about our day, and he asked me how the massage was. I told him that it was different than what I expected but nice and that I would be back tomorrow to try and get in the right headspace for our upcoming vacation. After dinner we watched a little tv and went upstairs to bed. As soon as my head hit the pillow, everything I had gone through in the past few hours flew out of my mind and my body finally had a moment to catch up with everything and I was asleep within 30 seconds.