So why did you decide to do this?
By this, they mean fuck other people with my husband watching. Or, watch other women fuck my husband.
I guess it’s a valid question.
I’ve spent quite a bit of time in my head about it, if you really want to know. Why did I decide to do this? It’s certainly not the norm. Not the status quo. Did I even decide to do it, or did it just become something I did?
Our first step out into the “Lifestyle” or LS as those in it say, seemed tawdry enough, something I imagined going differently.
Okay, that’s a lie. I didn’t think about it at all, past dressing for what I thought was the part, and getting the directions to the club on Google Maps. Maybe I was afraid to think past that, think about what it would mean if I were to do something there.
It’s all very new to me.