I don’t know how it has stayed with me. I had the ‘intrigue’ when I was younger and it just keeps coming back. I’ve talked to multiple therapists about it and they say so long as it’s Safe, Sane, and Consensual then I am ‘fine’. Well, I feel ‘insane’ even discussing it because it’s just ‘outside’ of ‘outside of the box’ while the idea is still safe and consensual (if it were plausible irl). I’m following the ‘behave as you would in real life’ guideline by not sharing it outright. I’ve asked multiple people who have similar upbringings and imaginations – some understand the concept while others are just like “whoa, wait, what?” I just don’t know and it bugs me when it just comes up randomly in my mind while engaging in foreplay. I’ve made several people burst out ‘laughing’ after it takes me a while to muster the courage to even discuss it in-person because they think I am being ridiculous. DAE ever feel this way?