I’m thinking back to a early March 2020. I gave my first blowjob. Kneeling there on the floor of an apartment I’ve never been in, giving head with an audience to a guy I’d only just met.
I’d chatted with the guy a little bit online. he seemed sweet. He started to talk about setting up a “reverse gangbang” (one guy, several ladies). I started blushing and admitted how shy and sexually inexperienced I was, but also implying that I wanted that to change. Want to know how sweet he was? He invited me to join as a spectator! I immediately accepted, saying how much I appreciated the invitation and how it’ll help me get more comfortable with sexuality. I let slip that it’ll be great to have some folks to watch since I’ve been really curious about learning how to give a blowjob.
Until then, I’d never given a blowjob. I’d given a handjob while a guy pawed my tits but there’s something special about blowjobs, I felt. A special kind of intimacy and experience that I craved. I wanted to feel a cock sliding in and out of my mouth. I wanted to smell and taste him and his cum. I wanted this so badly but my shyness always kept me from exploring. And so this guy I’d been chatting with said, “Lemme know if you ever want someone to practice on.”