So My mom had this friend who lived in our neighborhood, she was more like an aunt tbh.She was divorced and never had kids. She always told me i am like her son she never had. She used to take me out on Fairs, Shopping and movies on sundays almost every week. Then once she took me to a motel once, She said she didn’t feel good and need to lay down. She asked me to lay next to her and that day we just laid there in bed cuddling. From next week it became frequent she used to take me to different motels and we used to spend time together but the initial laying changed into activities.. she used to make me do things but the most amazing part was she used to make me call her “Mommy” during all those times.. I think this was the part that got me hooked on my mom.. I never did anything with my mom but i did developed feelings for my mom in not so motherly ways