I wasn’t good today.
Mama was not happy.I didn’t know what I did wrong at the beginning but as soon as we got to our room I understood.
As soon as the door close behind us mama told me not to move.
I was concerned from her not talking to me on the way and unhappy face and I didn’t want to upset her more. She went for her bag and told me to be silent and look in front of me.
When she finally came back she told me to open my mouth and that’s when I understood what I did wrong : she put a pacifier in my mouth. Oh my God.
This means she thought I behaved like a baby. It got me to think so fast…
Maybe I should have been more straight and less shy in our conversation… maybe I should have been quieter and not play with my hands when she was getting a phone call, trying to hold her hand..
maybe I just was not serious when she wanted me to… now I got it. Out of the bedroom mama wanted me to be more serious. I was immature and mama was telling me that. I deserved to be punished.