I’ve had cuckquean fantasies but didn’t really know it had a name until after I got married. I can trace it back to a relationship I had in college, but having low self-esteem when I was younger could also be a cause.
My husband definitely doesn’t know. I do love to pleasure myself thinking about him with other sexier women. End of last year I decided to write out my deepest fantasies. I’m a writer (by profession) but this is an avenue I never really explored. Fleshing them out was funner than I thought lol.
I’ve never really publicized my work and I haven’t written in a while (life got in the way) but I’m wondering if I should even invest more time and energy into this. Like, cuckqueaning is purely a fantasy of mine and I don’t ever see it becoming a reality, BUT the more you write about something the more it kind of ignites the flame and the thought of confessing to the hubs becomes more and more of a turn-on.