I have a friend who, over the past couple of years, I’ve gotten closer and closer too. She’s 23 years old and often complains to me about her virginity. We’ve never flirted with each other and she seems to bring this issue up with everyone (she’s very eccentric) but everytime she brings up being eager to try out sex or asking for advice on how to better attract men, it makes me go absolutely crazy inside. I just want to be the first to fuck her so bad.
Sometimes it’s easy to convince myself she secretly is dropping hints that she wants it to be me, like she will out of the blue ask me if I find her sexy or if her outfit is appealing over text. I always tell her I don’t think she’d have any problems finding someone if she just put herself out there, but she’s really shy around most men.
I really value our friendship and genuinely hope for the best for her. But every night when I’m masturbating I really can’t help but imagine her getting railed by me. When i watch porn I catch myself clicking on videos with girls who remind me of her. I just need her so bad it’s crazy.