Rekindling the love in my marriage .
My wife and I have been married almost 6 years. I am very Blessed and love her very much.
It’s not always smooth though, we really can’t communicate well, it’s very much a learning process. I get so frustrated with her and I put her through hell.
Now a little about me,
I’ve had depression for about 25 years, at least that’s what my therapist figures, from around age 10. My life of solitude began early. It was my way to protect myself from getting hurt. Being alone I wouldn’t have to let someone in my heart and really hurt me.
Of course as I got older and became an adult I wanted to be close to people, I wanted to feel loved and cared for. Unfortunately, though, I’ve already learned how to live my life: Alone. It may not have been what I wanted but it’s what I was comfortable with.
Of course I drank a lot to numb my pain, watched porn to compensate for feeling alone. (Now I’m not saying a drink is bad, but the control is, the power to fully enjoy yourself without needing to escape, without falling trap to addiction, in whatever form.)