Following from the comments and messages from my last post, I thought I would carry on the story..
Following on from what was the most confusingly sexual nights of my life, I was hesitant to discuss what had happened. Stuck between, do I ask him why he suggested it and is this just a thing that happened and we’re never going to mention it again?
Well, a couple of days past and nothing had happened, no mention of it and no attempt to repeat the actions of that evening. That was, until we were both alone, playing video games and he looked over to me and simply said “do you wanna do something?”
I nodded immediately with no hesitation as though my body was waiting for the question more than my brain was. He got up out of his bed, closed the door then came over to me. “How do you wanna do this?” he asked, standing over me with his crotch just below head height. At this point, the emotions hit again, I’m excited but also completely overcome with fear. I know now that I just need to be more comfortable with the situation but I was sti very unsure.