I’m nervous.
Because I’ve never had a man in bed with me before, I don’t know what to do! I have never had a man be compassionate or been able to trust them, if I trust them it comes back to hurt me. I’m so broken, I need someone.
I fantasise about you, it feels bad I shouldn’t be thinking these thoughts I’m young, they’re not pure thoughts. Maybe they’ll go away, I’m sure they will.
As time goes on, It doesn’t go away, the thoughts just get stronger until someone helps me fulfil each fantasy. I can’t use my little pink vibrator forever I need something stronger, bigger and more intense. I want your fingers inside me, rubbing and hitting every spot until I scream your name. I’ll clean your fingers off with my mouth whilst it’s still warm, like a disciplined girl should. I would give anything to have that, someone who looked after me like that and cared enough about me to make me cum all night until Im too exhausted to cum anymore. I wanna be fucked infront of a mirror so I can stare into his eyes whilst he ruins me from behind. I want him to see all of me, every vulnerable weak and desperate side.