Obsessively missing him after being dumped. [F, Str8, mast, stalking]

(This is my first time writing here. So contructive criticism is welcome!)

I am crushed. He dumped me. Oh “You’ve put on some weight and you’re too boring in the bedroom to make up for it” wasn’t supposed to hurt the way it did? I would have been fine if he told me I wasn’t meeting his needs. I would have understood if he felt like we were drifting apart from the people we were 5 years ago. Yes, I was skinnier and a bit more eager to please…we were in a new relationship. I gave everything to him. I moved across states, I dropped friends, changed jobs. Why did he just up and leave? We could have went to counseling, therapy, the gym..I’m willing to work on us. But he’s gone. After wasting 5 years with this man, what am I to do now? I’m fat, have no close friends, in a city I never explored on my own and I’m vanilla in bed. Let’s put that on bumble and see the quality of men I get.