My wife has been traveling a lot. I’m going nuts and writing is an outlet. This is written to her and is something I plan on sharing in the future; albeit a rounded off quite a bit. Like my other posts it probably comes off as hacky wish fulfillment but fuck it; for someone like me who supports or leads a lot of the people around me, I think it’s especially okay and cathartic to be selfish in my fantasies.
___
I have a role-play fantasy in which you, as yourself, as my wife, matter-of-factly hold yourself responsible helping me be healthy, focused, and motivated via keeping my balls empty. This is something you always naively believed was expected upon marriage and though you have since found otherwise, you still continue to see the value in it. You’ve normalized it, sort of like the understanding of female hormones during your cycle and have come to take pity on guys who have a high sex drive with no healthy outlet. Male hormones are pretty wild. When you hear friends vent about their marital problems you can’t help but think “Is she draining his balls often enough?” I’m more mellow, cooperative, and trusting because if it. It works.