F25 – does this count as cheating? [almost-cheating] [size queen] [masturbation]

Secretly, I was always a size-queen ever since I first saw a really hung guy naked in a man’s locker room (accidentally walked in during swim practice).

I have been with the same guy for 6 years now (it’s great and I love him), but before that I only ever slept with two guys. All of them are average-sized. I don’t mind that during sex, but I always found big hard cocks beautiful. Especially if they’re clean, maintained and elegantly shaped. Somehow, I admire them instantly upon seeing them.

So, a guy sent me a facebook request the other day, and I accidentally accepted it. He sent me a dick pic – it was not only huge, but looked perfect. We ended up flirting (even though I tried my best to resist it), and long story short we turned on our webcams and masturbated and teased each other. He not only knew the right things to say, but also the way he said them – he was so dominant, strict and kept telling me what to do in such an authoritative way that totally worked for me. Ended up cumming 4 or 5 times before he too came. It was the hottest experience I ever had. I never had such intense pleasure even from sex. However, when he came, a few seconds later guilt and shame set in. I started thinking – how could I do this to my bf?