I’ve been craving desire, of a particular kind. My body is always almost riled up, commanding almost, my brain to go ahead with that date, or that late night text that inadvertently some past partner sends. But I crave more than just the momentarily respite, where it’s all about the act, and the release, and everything which precedes it. And after that, radio silence.
I crave thoughts and ideas and feelings that are so fleeting in nature, that they go out of your grasp if you even dare mention it. The desire to stroke my partner’s hair, warm her up on a cold night by pulling her closer to me and wrap her legs around me. Of kissing the bruises I gave her. Of taking her into the shower after I’m done using her as a harlot, and then cherish her like a lover. To wash her body, to dry her up and carry her in. To make her count my heartbeat, just like she counts the spankings I was giving her. Of laying together, in silence, except the rumbling of the air conditioner, and the heat between our bodies. My mind mindlessly wandering, thinking about everything and nothing, until my eyes go to her face, blissful and rising with my chest after every breath that I take. I look into her eyes, and she looks into mine. And that’s all it took, she can feel my cock nestled against her stomach growing. And that’s all it took for her, her breath quickens, and I just need to pry my fingers down into her slit, to find it emanating heat. My mouth salivates, I need to taste her. And I do. And her taste is exquisite. And what follows next is up for debate. We make love. Or I use her body and she lets me, with gleeful abandon. Or it’s a whore indulging the requests of her favourite customer. Or it’s a dominant with his submissive.