If you had told me six months ago I would be having a sexual awakening at 30 I would have laughed. I have always been very sexual and in touch with my sexuality, thank you very much. I think I am having the best sex and then it gets better and I say to myself, OK now, how much better can it get? and then it happens again. My first relationship was with another woman, I thought I was bi, I went on to date men after that. It was more manageable. I married young and by age twenty I had a husband and a kid. We were together ten years, poly for most of them. In spite of being open to the things I wanted, he was a jealous and possessive man. He was my fourth man ever.