So basically I was i have always been a big guy. Bigger in the sense that i am not fat but I’m 6’4 and have a large body in general. Because of this, i was always the strongest guy in the room throughout my childhood. I also looked older than all the others in my classes. I had already started to get traces of a mustache and beard at 12. Because of this, i was always a sort of a leader in whatever activity i was taking part in. Throughout school everyone eventually knew me. This may seem life a blessing to most of you but it became like a curse for me. I had to be the one in charge and in control all the time.