These events took place in my late 20s. I’ve cleaned up the notes from my diary.
*March 2005*
For the last month, I had noticed the change in my therapist since I started discussing sexual difficulties I was having. She started dressing a little differently; tighter tops, lower cuts, shorter skirts. She started leaning forward more when I would hesitate giving the details she requested.
After describing one event from my life, I could have sworn she had bit her lip. Last week, she had suggested some role playing might help me while she left her legs a little too far apart, giving me a glimpse of pink fabric between her thighs.
I knew things were going off the rails when Amber sucked on her fingers briefly and said, “You know, I was a beauty queen once…” She looked down and then peaked up as she subtly leaned forward and her necklace dangled between her breasts. “Do you think I’m still attractive?”
It was a weird question to be asked in general, but especially by your therapist. I assured her that she was still very attractive despite being in her early 50s. She actually was quite sexy and I became self-conscious about if she had picked up on me catching glances at her cleavage and legs.