My (25f) Port-a-potty blowjob experience [MF][ORAL]

One of the most intense, sexiest, and simultaneous nastiest experience I’ve ever had was giving a blowjob in a port-a-potty. Logically there is nothing that would make me want to do it but in the heat of lust you do things without thinking and find out the turn you on more than they should. He whisked me off into one and had me kneel and give him a blowjob. I remember distinctively cringing as I knelt but focusing on the task at hand before swallowing his load and then going back to the festivities outside like nothing had ever happened.

Deepthroating my boyfriend [MF][ORAL]

One of the most intense sexual experiences I have ever had was attempting to deepthroat a guy and gagging so hard and repeatedly that I lost control of myself in the moment and threw up on his cock. It was a dazed moment of intense embarrassment and shame followed by a euphoric type of lust. I felt confused because my mental instinct was to pull away in disgust and shame, but at the same time I felt myself aroused and wet at the idea that I was used so intensely while trying to pleasure a man that I literally lost control of my faculties and body.

I see a lot of porn that showcases rough throatfucking and deepthroating, but none of it seems to capture that emotional intensity of when it happens in a real non-manufactured moment between a couple. Has anyone else had experience with this or liked the idea of it happening?