Please be as sadistic and cruel as you can be. I need it, and I mean it. It is the most cathartic thing in the world for me, being submissive, and the more intense it is the more it helps. I’ve got some pretty fucked up stuff in my past, we all do, and my particular flavor of mental anguish is guilt. I want to be punished, and I don’t know any other way to put it but that even if it might not be the best word or phrase to describe what I mean. But I do know that it’s a hell of a lot healthier to handle that in the bedroom in a healthy manner than it is to carry it around with me.
You’ve seen it firsthand. You know it helps, and I’m happy to say you really enjoy being part of it. But I can tell you’re worried about hurting me and that you hold back a lot how far you’d like to push me.