So basically I was i have always been a big guy. Bigger in the sense that i am not fat but I’m 6’4 and have a large body in general. Because of this, i was always the strongest guy in the room throughout my childhood. I also looked older than all the others in my classes. I had already started to get traces of a mustache and beard at 12. Because of this, i was always a sort of a leader in whatever activity i was taking part in. Throughout school everyone eventually knew me. This may seem life a blessing to most of you but it became like a curse for me. I had to be the one in charge and in control all the time.
I did get quite a lot of girls in highschool but here’s what the problem was; they always assumed i was super dominant and I just had to assume that role naturally. One girl that I was in a relationship with during my early highschool years was into the whole bdsm thing. I had started to live comparatively independently and my parents had given me a great deal of freedom already so having a girlfriend over at my place was rarely ever an issue. I would just sneak her into my room on the top floor and my parents would rarely ever visit our room. She wasn’t ready for having sex but i would spank her, slap her, spit on her and she would masturbate on my command. Don’t get me wrong, i did enjoy it but doing this all the time was mentally exhausting. One thing she did though was tease me by not submitting and acting like she was the master of me and I felt more aroused when she did that than when she would actually submit to me. When we would meet and have our sessions I would just imagine having the things I was doing to her having done to me and I would be harder than a rock.
This kept going and I felt like i was suffocating being in control all the time. I talked to that girl and told her that i had spitting, spanking and humiliation kinks. I explained it to her in detail and she broke up with me. When I got in college however I knew i was gonna turn things around. I got talking with the girls there and there was one I was interested in. Not to boast but a bunch of girls took interest in me but this one was special. I started talking to her and told her about my fetishes as soon as I got comfortable enough. At first she was sort of confuse but later she said that she could do that stuff for me.
It started with spitting. She would drip spit into my mount and spit on me when we would meet for intimacy. She would give me handjobs and did the spitting. After the these meetups she would laugh about it alot and tbh, the slight humiliation that came from it made me feel so good.
After spitting we got into spanking and this was a big one. I would get spankings from her even outside of our sessions. She would use the back of a brush and hit me with it till i was squirming and crying like a baby. Tbh it was not the pain that turned me on but the humiliation of crying aloud with tears, completely naked and with a bright red butt. She would wipe my tears off and I would get dressed and get to the campus. It was especially fun when we did it before the lectures we had together because then i would walk all the her from the dorms with her and we would laugh about it and I especially liked telling her how much it hurt. Then we would be sitting in class and I’d keep shifting the way i would be sitting so it would hurt less. She would see this and smile.
This went on for a while and she brought pegging up herself. I was very skeptical when it came to pegging but she offered me a deal. She would start calling me her slut and get dirty little whore and she would let me call her mommy, in return i would let he peg me. I thought about it and finally said yes. I brought a black silicon strap-on for her and she was super excited. I remember the first time we pegged very clearly. She spanked me first and then asked me to suck on her strap-on. It made me feel disgusted but the way she call me her little whore made it all worth it. She would pull my head forcing me to deep throat it. I gagged on it countless time and alot of spit was all over me. She would also spit on me from the top. Then, she finally put it in for the first time. We were in the prone bone position. The strap-on was just slightly smaller than my dick. She started going rougher and pulling my hair. A moan or two slipped but i tried my best not to moan and mostly didn’t. In ten minutes or so the most unexpected thing ever happened. I came and it was a massive load. The incredible thing was that she hadn’t even touched my dick. I was so flustered. She slid the strap-on out and just laid down beside me and started to laugh out aloud. I dropped on top of her and started laughing to. She said that she would spend the night in my dorm on one condition. She asked me to lick the bedsheets clean. Eating my own cum was something that disgusted me beyond measure. I said no but there’s just something about the way she says please. I ate the cum and lied down on top of her with a disgusted and put off face. She was still dressed. She ran fingers through my hair and gave me kisses telling me how strong i was. This night was the first time she said i love you to me and I said it back. I laid there completely naked in her arms. This was also the first night i sucked on her boobs. I sucked on her boobs till i fell asleep while she kept running her fingers through my hair.
I’m still reminiscing about that night months later.
Source: reddit.com/r/Erotica/comments/zzs6ri/my_fairly_slutty_journey_with_bdsm_yet