My old diary.

My parents are in the process of moving house and my Mum gave me an old box full of things of mine from the attic from when I was at college and living at home nearly 30 years ago. Below are a few extracts from 1993 šŸ¤—
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I decided to have a snoop around Jackā€™s (my brother) bedroom this afternoon when everyone was out. Iā€™ve looked before for the porn stash that he brags to his mates about and today i found it. He needs to get a girlfriend and stop wanking his life away. It was disgusting seeing all off the magazines with girls holding open their pussies or sucking their tits and pretending to enjoy it but i think they only do it for the money. I dread to think what kind of stuff is on the pile of videos that he has hidden as well. Iā€™m going to watch some when i know iā€™ve got the house to myself for a few hours because I reckon that they could make me horny especially as Iā€™ve not made myself cum this week cos of my period. I wonder how much the girls get paid? I wonder if anyone would ever pay to see my girly bits, I think my boobs are too big already and Iā€™m starting to panic about getting freakin stretch marks so I doubt it. It would be a bit creepy stripping off in front of some stranger with a big camera, I reckon heā€™d be about 50 and probably have a beer belly, a big moustache and bald spot. What happens if he gets a hard on, do the girls get paid more if they do anything sexual? I reckon it would be easy money though, most boys cum so fast that I could probably work my way through the whole studio in about 10 minutes, that would pay for my tip to Greece in summer hahaha. Plus iā€™d have a full tummy of cum so I could save my lunch money towards some new make up WINNER! Iā€™m going to think of a list of guys who I would like to take photographs of me but if they get on my list then itā€™s probably because i want them to fuck me anyway. Mark Rolandā€™s brother is at the top of the list I think. He always looks at me in a really cool way and it gives me butterflies. Plus he has a car but also a pretty girlfriend and she looks like she would kick my ass if i ever got with him. He bought me a drink a couple of Friday nights ago in town and he was gently squeezing my arse in the pub as we were talking but his bird wasnā€™t there so i didnā€™t even stop him and I pretended not to notice. I think iā€™m shit at flirting though. I never know what to say to make me sound hot and so I mostly giggle and try and kinda move my chest so my tits jiggle but he is four years older so he does have more experience than me. I think that i should have at least rubbed my hand accidentally near his dick to see if he was hard or is that too forwards? Thatā€™s perhaps why he thinks he fancies me because Iā€™m a pure virgin and he wants to pop my cherry haha! Some of the pages in some of the magazines were stuck together and i nearly puked that iā€™d touched Jackā€™s cum but then i got wondering whether he wanks off with his mates looking at the pics, not in a gay way i mean but just saying. Do boys do that? I think iā€™d piss myself laughing if Donna said she wanted to finger herself with me but that said it would be another great way to charge the boys at school to watch and top up our Greece 94 fund.
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I was waiting outside the careers office this morning and I overheard a conversation that I really shouldnā€™t have. Mr Chapel and Mr Booth (teachers) were both talking about one of the girls in my year, Vicky Hughes. I donā€™t really get on with her, I donā€™t dislike her but she can be a bit of a slag Iā€™m told and sheā€™s the girl who Andy says sucked his dick over the summer on the park when she was pissed on cider. Iā€™d suck Andyā€™s dick but Iā€™d never tell him that, I reckon that it would be pretty long and heavy if itā€™s in proportion with the rest of his body. Mr Chapel made a comment something likeā€™ butter wouldnā€™t melt in Vickyā€™s mouthā€™ and Mr Booth came back immediately by saying something like ā€˜heā€™d like his cock to melt in her mouthā€™. What a dirty old cunt! Teachers arenā€™t supposed to talk like that are they, especially when theyā€™re old and married. He must be at least 35 and heā€™s probably got kids as well. I think Iā€™d be really nervous sucking a teachers cock. He would probably be making notes and be really critical. Plus what would be the best way to get top marks? If I swallow all of his cum then would I be marked down for it? In pornos the guys usually cum all over the girls tits or face so I wouldnā€™t know what to do for the best when it came to the finish. I donā€™t mind swallowing cum but thatā€™s not something I want to get known for right now. The closest I get to any teacher attention was last year when we had the swimming module in PE. It doesnā€™t really count though because he works at the pool and not the school but you know what i mean. I donā€™t even know what his name was but he was very fit for an old guy. He had a way of looking at my body without it being pervy and I didnā€™t notice him looking at the other girls like he was looking at me even though Chantelle Jackson literally had her huge tits hanging out of her bikini top – a bikini the fucking nutter for a school swimming lesson in November hahaha. Plus sheā€™s a good couple of sizes bigger than me and i donā€™t mean that in a bitchy way cos sheā€™s pretty cool and a real prick tease at school. My black swimsuit, classy fucker haha, holds me in around the bust and the high cut makes my bum and legs look pretty good plus it has a zip that when unfastened runs the entire length of my cleavage but i donā€™t know the exact length because that would just be weird. I spent most of the session playing with the zip and he smiled at me a few times when he saw me doing it but i think i fucked it up when i winked at him because he spent the next 10 mins or so at the other end of the pool. Donna pissed herself laughing and said it was because he had a bulging hard on but I donā€™t buy it. When I came out of the changing rooms though at the end he was still looking at me and even spoke to me. It was nothing exciting but he said that heā€™s interested in seeing how my technique develops over the next few sessions or something dull that I chose to interpret as flirting. In my mind I replied that iā€™d show him my technique anytime before dropping to my knees and sucking him off right there and then but the reality was that i blushed and giggled like a fuckwit. Note to self – which teachers are worth flirting with?
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On the bus on the way home from town I sat across from a guy who Iā€™ve seen a few times on there but weā€™ve never spoken before. I think he must have been drinking because he saw my name badge on my uniform and started trying to chat with me. It was a bit awkward at first as there were other people sat near me and I didnā€™t know what to say to him. He was decent looking and he wasnā€™t staring at my tits so at first I thought he might have been gay. I donā€™t really fancy him but there is something about him which makes me horny. He was staring at my legs though and so I kept crossing and uncrossing them trying to look like Sharon Stone hahaha. Maybe I need to start going out not wearing any knickers? I think it worked because when he stood up to get off the bus he had his hand in his pocket and when he took it out it was clear that his dick was hard. He winked at me and got off and if he would have asked me to get off with him I would ā€˜ve said yes. I hope he goes home and has a wank, if heā€™s straight of course. Even if he isnā€™t straight I think he liked my legs which is nice. I think next time I see him Iā€™ll test him out by taking off my jacket so he can see my top half. Iā€™d love for him to sit next to me next time and I could put my coat over my legs so that he can finger me but thatā€™s not gonna happen.
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Mike and me finally got to spend some time alone this afternoon in the study cubicles. I couldnā€™t believe my luck when he told me that Kerry had gone home with period pains and so I teased him that he wouldnā€™t be getting any action anytime soon. I love it when heā€™s cheeky and he asked me if Iā€™d take her place and so I told him to fuck right off! I would though but only Donna knows that and thatā€™s how it needs to stay. We finished off the English assignment and then he started getting randy again asking me why I always where big tops which hide my tits? I was a bit unsure what to say and he asked me to take it off so that he could see for himself and he had the fucking nerve to complain that Kerry was flat chested and that he liked my figure more. This made me feel really horny. He was literally begging me to show him and so I checked that no one else was around and took my jumper off. I let him feel me up for a few seconds and by now I was getting hot in my pussy. I let him put his hand inside my shirt and he kept trying to pull my tits out of my bra but my shirt was too tight. My nipples were so hard that they had gone all crinkly and I was a bit scared at first that he wouldnā€™t like them. I undid a couple of buttons and my boobs were on show for him but I wouldnā€™t let him take my bra off in public, Iā€™m not a slag. I could see he was hard and so i started rubbing his dick through his track pants while i fastened my top back up. He kept telling me that he wanted to fuck me but this made me giggle and I told him it was never gonna happen because of Kerry. He undid his belt and pulled his cock out and it was really sticky like he had already cum so I wanked him off as fast as I could but after only a couple of seconds he started to spunk all up my arm and on the floor. I left him there to go and wash my hands just as Mr Thomas was walking towards the study room. If he would have come in a couple of minutes earlier I think I would have been in serious shit, imagine getting kicked out of school for a hand job. Anyway, this isnā€™t cheating in my opinion because theyā€™ve only been together for 7 weeks and even though Mike has told his mates that they are fucking Kerry says itā€™s only fingers at this time. He walked me halfway home and tried to kiss me but I didnā€™t let him but I did want to. When I got home all of the hairs around my pussy were glued together from my juices and it smelled really strong so I took my knickers in the shower with me to clean them. I wish Mike had tried to finger me today because I would of let him.
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I read in an article in More magazine about the best ways to have an orgasm and so Iā€™m trying out some of the ideas. Iā€™ve realised that the handle of my best hairbrush is the perfect size and shape to fuck myself with and that my electric toothbrush handle feels amazing against my clit for vibrations. Me and Donna spoke about getting vibrators but we donā€™t want to go in to the sex shop in town on our own in case someone who we know sees us. Iā€™ve seen ads in the back of the Sunday papers though where you can order them to be delivered but I donā€™t want it to be delivered when Iā€™m not home so that I donā€™t have to explain anything to my parents. I used my hair brush last night again in bed and this morning I could still smell my pussy on it so I need to get some wipes for my bedside table. Can you imagine if someone at school had asked to borrow it stinking of my minge haha. I donā€™t know what size to get either cos I donā€™t want anything too big which might stretch me out too much but I do need something that will fill me up. I love to think about a guy fucking me with a dildo as he licks my clit at the same time but then why doesnā€™t he just fuck me with his cock instead if heā€™s there? Iā€™ve got the hang now of giving myself really strong orgasms but itā€™s taken a while and a lot of practice.Ā 
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Woke up this morning feeling like shit and iā€™ve been sick three times already. Iā€™m never drinking ever again and this time i think i mean it. I canā€™t really remember getting home but I think I styled it out past my Dad because he wasnā€™t in a mood with me this morning but he said I looked awful. I canā€™t believe that I got with Pete and Iā€™ve no idea if anyone else saw us. It was weird being in the total dark with him and I secretly loved it because I couldnā€™t see anything and it could have been anyone feeling me up. Heā€™s still not really my type and I donā€™t plan on speaking to him again on Monday but heā€™s the best at licking me out that I have had. He did this thing where he kept pushing two fingers inside me and kind of pushing up against my tummy as he pushed them in. It felt different but when he started sucking my pussy as well I started to really love it. He couldnā€™t get a hard on though but I wonā€™t tell anyone because they might think itā€™s because of me but he was sweet and said he really liked me and he was really sorry that heā€™d had too much beer. I didnā€™t mind at the time because he was fingering me so well but today I think that it couldā€™ve been because he didnā€™t actually fancy me when he saw my tits and bits. I wasnā€™t quite naked but heā€™d pulled my bra and top up under my chin and my knickers and skirt down to my ankles so he pretty much saw everything Iā€™ve got. Iā€™ve got a huge love bite though on my left tit from him and I wish that he would have played with my nipples a little more. Iā€™m feeling a lot more comfortable about my nipples now as I feel like iā€™m growing in to them so to speak. Iā€™m tempted to go out tonight in a low cut top so that the love bite is on show but it might make me look like a slut. When I see it in the mirror though I like it because it will make people wonder how I got it? Iā€™m tempted to give myself a matching love bite on my other boob but that would probably make me look a dick, haha. Back to my nips though i think theyā€™ve stopped growing thank fuck and my boobs are catching them up from behind and rounding out nicely but i donā€™t really want them to get any bigger. My Mum says that I need to go and get them measured properly because i need well fitting braā€™s but iā€™m honestly quite happy at the minute squeezing the girls in to my old c cup bras which i grew out of last year. I did the pencil test against the other day and yep, the pencil didnā€™t move which means that my boobs are officially saggy already.Ā I think Pete made me cum three times in total but the last one almost felt painful cos it was so strong and my boobs went from feeling sexual to feeling tender. When I checked my knickers this morning they looked and smelled surprisingly clean and thatā€™s cos Petey Pie literally licked my fanny clean hahaha. Usually theyā€™re a crusty smelly mess when Iā€™ve been chatting with boys and I know now not to wear lacey ones to parties because they leak my juices on to my clothes. Itā€™s weird because i donā€™t really get wet like a watery pussy when Iā€™m turned on and itā€™s more of a slimy, gooey juice. That sounds fucking gross reading it back and has made my hangover come back and now iā€™m just talking shit.
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