I don’t even remember when it started. Surely I’ve been playing with myself since I was a teenager but when did I start playing with other people online? Behind my partner’s back? I don’t know. It’s been at least a couple of years now. This is not my first reddit account and I’ve been playing elsewhere too.
I was always a little bit on the submissive side. Okay, maybe a but more than just a little. Somehow I enjoy being told what to do. Giving up control to someone else. As I’ve found out there are some sexy people all over the internet who like getting the control I want to give out. So far so good. But there was a problem. I was rather shy. I would never stomach the courage to post my naked pics online or record a video and put it somewhere for the world to see. Was always too afraid of being found out and so on.
So I’ve found reddit and then subreddits and then NSFW part of reddit which is quite massive. Then I got to Dirty Pen Pals and that’s where this story really begins. I’ve started writing Pms with people. Sometimes for days on end. Paragraphs and pages of kinky filth. Fantasizing about things that turned me on, made me horny. I got to love role playing and often played a role of a slut, whore, escort, you name it. As long as the other person would have his or her way with me. Took control. Tell me what to do. Use me for his or her pleasure. I loved it.
From time to time someone really special came by and I had impossible amount of fun writing with them. Sometime this play time would get a little to the side. Someone would ask me what I am like in real life. About my sex life. About what I am wearing. What’s my favorite this and that. I don’t remember when was the first time someone asked me… or… told me to take some clothing off and put on something sexy. I remember certain times when that happened and I certainly remember how hot it got me.
One of the guys I role played with told me he loved when a woman wears black stockings. And would it be possible for me to put some on while we where in a chatzy room playing. I was home alone at the time and he got me quite horny and I thought, screw it, why not? I’ve asked him what else he wants me to wear. And soon enough I was sitting down in front of my laptop dressed like a slut. Black heels, stockings, a tiny red thong and a little black dress. He told me not to wear a bra. I’ve answered “Yes Sir”. He loved my answer. Didn’t ask me to call him that, I just did. He absolutely loved it.
When we finished playing his fantasy where we fucked in pretty much every room of his house, we said our goodbyes, not knowing when we will be able to play next time. I was super horny at this point. I really mean super. And when I am, I tend to be a bit braver than usual and I can say some things which I wouldn’t normally. Just before he left the room I asked “Sir? Can I have one more question?”
“Yes my pet?” He replied.
“I want to have an orgasm right now, can I touch myself?”
I know he was smiling at that point. He told me to take off everything but stockings, lie down on the bed and think about how we just fucked and just go for it. “Just don’t be too quick with it, play a little longer”. Oh dear lord I loved these words.
The orgasm I gave myself that afternoon was simply amazing. It didn’t take long to get me to the edge since I’ve just spent something like two hours fucking, sucking, screwing in every way possible in our fantasy. I’ve played with my clit a lot longer than I would usually and it was glorious. I loved every second of it.
I think that was the time when I fell in love with being instructed. Since then I gave control of my play time to several people and loved it every time. I got more adventurous with it too. And if anyone is interested in some stories about how I was told to play… or what I did for some stranger on the other end of a chat room… I would love to hear from you. I will try to find time and write something more. Have a good day :)
Source: reddit.com/r/sexystories/comments/g5xojm/how_ive_started_playing_with_others_f_str8_fsub
Have you reconsidered posting pictures online? Obviously nothing with face or any identifying marks but subtle pictures that could definitely help open you up to more comfort with the idea.
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