Have you ever wished that you could experience your first orgasm again? This is the story of mine.
I am the middle child of 5 in my family with 2 sisters and 2 brothers. I always felt like I was the odd one out. I was raised in a strict religious household, Mormon, to be exact. I never really believed what I was being taught but my parents didn’t really give me a choice. They are both very conservative and wanted the best for their children so they pushed us all hard. My siblings excelled while I seemed to lag behind. I probably have some undiagnosed form of ADD but my parents didn’t trust therapists. Schoolwork was actually pretty easy for me if I had the motivation to do it.
From a young age I knew that I was perverted, I would always take off the clothes of my barbie dolls. I had this computer game that let you drag and drop characters and could be painted. I would use the dropper tool on their skin and paint over their clothes to make them naked. My parents caught me and were furious.
I still remember the day in school where the concept of puberty was introduced to me and afterwards my mom picked me up and gave me the sex talk in the car. She very briefly described how a man puts his penis in a woman’s vagina and ejaculates sperm and then she becomes pregnant. She spent more time on how it’s only between a married man and woman and to have children. That was it, for the rest of my life my parents have not uttered a word about sex to me. I learned more about it in my health and biology classes.
I had no access to pornogrophy, we had the internet but it was heavily filtered. I knew about it from kids at school and one time I tried to look it up, it was blocked. My older brother got blamed for it. We could watch pg-13 movies but if it had a sex scene my dad would fast forward through it. Homosexuality is also not allowed. I didn’t know how 2 women could have sex with each other but I was curious. There was a small group of girls at my school that were lesbian but I was really shy and nerver talked to them, plus my parents would never have let me hang out with them. I was also afraid that anyone I told would think I was weird. So I kept my feelings inside.
I wasn’t allowed to date until I was 16 and it had to be a mormon boy. I didn’t really have much interest so I only went on one date while I lived at home. I didn’t even go to my senior prom.
The urges however were unrelenting as my body changed during puberty. I started to develop breasts and hips and my hair started getting darker. I thought I looked ugly but my sister said I was beautiful. My older sister was the only one I got along with but she had left home for college and I felt even more alone. My parents were too busy with work and church to notice anything wrong with me.
One night I couldn’t sleep. I was laying in bed thinking about the fact that I would probably never have sex.
It’s not that I haven’t fantasized about doing it. All the girls in my class were talking about boys and going on dates and having sex. I knew that I was different from them because I didn’t know how.
I rolled onto my side and brought my pillow close to me and put it under my butt. I was wearing underwear at the time but no bra. My breasts were pressed against the pillow and I started rubbing my thighs together. I was thinking about how nice it would feel if someone did that to me. I felt a tingling sensation starting to grow in between my legs. I began rubbing faster. I had never done anything like this before and it was exciting. I could feel my breathing becoming deeper and I could taste the scent of my arousal.
I was moaning softly. The feeling grew stronger and I could feel myself getting wetter. I was grinding my hips into the pillow harder and faster. I was breathing harder now and I could feel my heart beating in my chest. My body seemed to know what it was doing on its own. I was no longer in control of my actions. I was just responding to the sensations that were happening to my body.
My moans became louder and I was thrusting my hips forward. My eyes were closed and I could feel the heat rising in my cheeks and neck. My body was trembling and I could feel the pressure building in my lower belly. I was breathing faster and harder. I was screaming silently in my head for release. I couldn’t hold back anymore, I had to touch my pussy. I moved my hand inside of my panties and could feel the heat and wetness. I exploded violently when I finally touched my clit. I cried out and fell backwards on my bed. My whole body shook with aftershocks. I lay there panting and gasping. I had never experienced something like that before. It was amazing.
I slowly opened my eyes and saw my clock. It was 3:00 am. I laid there staring at the ceiling. I had never been so horny in my entire life. I was still burning up from what happened. I rubbed my fingers over my clitoris and felt the little nub of flesh that made me feel so good. I had never felt this way before. I was never supposed to feel pleasure. I was only supposed to be happy when I was married and had children.
I reached down and touched my pussy and ran them slowly over my lips. I was so wet. I was dripping all over the sheets. I could feel the wetness running down my thighs. I slipped a finger inside of me and slid it in and out. It was warm and slippery. I continued to rub my clit and slide my fingers in and out of me. I was so turned on. I couldn’t get enough of touching myself.
I spread my legs open and stuck my middle finger deep inside of me. I was so hot and wet. My hands were shaking and I was breathing heavy. I had never felt this way before. I was almost crying because I was so aroused. I could feel my heart pounding in my chest. My body was vibrating with excitement. I was shaking uncontrollably. I took my other hand and held it near my clit. I could feel my juices flowing out of me and sliding down my fingers. I was so horny. I needed more.
I pulled my finger out of my pussy and stuck 2 fingers inside of me. I was stroking my clit and fingering myself furiously. I was moaning and thrusting my hips toward my fingers. I couldn’t stop. I was going crazy. I was screaming in my head and arching my back. I was so embarrassed but I couldn’t help it. I couldn’t stop.
I began to feel the overwhelming pleasure again, I was trying to keep quiet but my voice betrayed me. I put one hand over my mouth to muffle the noises I was making. I was humping the air and I could feel my juices squirting out of me. I was so wet. I couldn’t believe it. I had never been this turned on before. My whole body was trembling and I was gasping for breath.
I collapsed onto the bed and lay there panting, my eyes were closed. For the first time in my life I finally felt content for the moment. My bed was a mess, but I didnt care as I drifted off to sleep.
Source: reddit.com/r/Erotica/comments/10s759f/my_first_orgasm_f18
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