I (f33 finally gave myself the big O

This an admission rather than a story but I’m so happy about it!!

So bit of background, my husband and I have a very active sex life and are quite adventurous together. No complaints there whatsoever. He always makes me cum, many many times! (Thats why I married him! 🤣)
However, I’ve never been able to enjoy masturbating. I think it’s down to childhood trauma of being sexually abused among other things.
Whenever I would try, I could never relax to enjoy the sensation. It Just felt like touching any other body part. I could never understand when other women would say they would ‘finish themselves off’ – I couldn’t even get myself started.

Well, after exploring erotic writing, my libido has shot up even when my husband isn’t home.
I tried rubbing my clit alternate speeds and pressure, it started to feel really nice and I was getting into it, but I couldn’t quite get ‘there’.

So out came the vibrator thats been in the cupboard since first use as it did nothing for me….
That is definitely not the case now! I had that amazing buzzing bright pink stick of wonder in my hand – I rubbed along my pussy, the feeling was fantastic! Really getting me worked up.
Working my way up to my clit, I held it on my sensitive little nubbin and cranked the speed.
My legs started to shake, my hips bucking. My chest was heaving with every breath I took, getting faster and faster. My muscles contracted all over my body and the most delicious electric feeling cascaded from my core to the very tips of my fingers and toes. My pussy pulsated as I lay breathless with my head spinning and my mouth dry.
I did it! I finally made myself cum after all these years of trying.
I felt so accomplished, knowing I finally knew how to pleasure myself and not solely rely on my husband.
So I did it again twenty minutes later!

Source: reddit.com/r/Erotica/comments/y4r2ri/i_f33_finally_gave_myself_the_big_o