26M bi curious story

I’ve been bicurious for a while and never wanted to accept it. I love my girlfriend to death but I’ve always wondered what a cock was like. I’ve cheated (with girls) a couple of times and regret it so much. When I do cocaine I’m especially curious and horny. A few weeks ago I got grindr and one night about 2 weeks ago I got really coked out and eventually found a guy to meet up by my house while my girlfriend was home. Got in his truck, he pulled his pants down and I started sucking his cock. Pretty sure I enjoyed it but I bitched out and felt really guilty and ashamed so I stopped. Never want to do that to her again but I also want to explore even if that means she gets fucked too. She won’t go for it. High bi?

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