Rekindling the love in my marriage .
My wife and I have been married almost 6 years. I am very Blessed and love her very much.
It’s not always smooth though, we really can’t communicate well, it’s very much a learning process. I get so frustrated with her and I put her through hell.
Now a little about me,
I’ve had depression for about 25 years, at least that’s what my therapist figures, from around age 10. My life of solitude began early. It was my way to protect myself from getting hurt. Being alone I wouldn’t have to let someone in my heart and really hurt me.
Of course as I got older and became an adult I wanted to be close to people, I wanted to feel loved and cared for. Unfortunately, though, I’ve already learned how to live my life: Alone. It may not have been what I wanted but it’s what I was comfortable with.
Of course I drank a lot to numb my pain, watched porn to compensate for feeling alone. (Now I’m not saying a drink is bad, but the control is, the power to fully enjoy yourself without needing to escape, without falling trap to addiction, in whatever form.)
So I got married when I was 29 and my poor wife dealt with so much. I truly admire her strength. I would go for a week sleeping in a dark closet to both metaphorically and physically be alone, because I was so uncomfortable having someone to care and love me.
I was very cold to her, and I want to apologize to you. I’m sorry, baby. I love you.
Now a big result of my problems is I have a huge guilt factor for having sex with my wife (I also think it’s attributed to generations of Catholics who I think have a learned guilty conscious towards sex)
So throughout my entire life sex has always felt more like a chore, I never really enjoyed it and most importantly I have always restrained or hid away from what I really wanted, desired, yearned for. I kept it down, not even allowing my wife to see all of me. Well through therapy and lots of trying, I’m opening up to my wife. We are getting closer and bonding more and more. I still act cold to her sometimes, I still push to be alone sometimes but I came back within a day and just opening up more. It’s a lifelong journey that I am excited to share with her.
As a result for becoming spiritually, emotionally, physically, intellectually closer to her I’m also getting more horny and wanting her more and more and knowing to feel that feeling is okay. To want to fuck my smoking hot, beautiful, intelligent most wonderful person I know. I want her all to myself. I really feel like a teenager again!
This year we started, or should I say, I started to open up to her about my desires. Lingerie, cumming in her mouth or on her face, dirty talk, many many more, it’s just beginning! And I should say she is very hot and I think I’m not so bad myself!
Tonight is my birthday, and actually I think I have Covid-19. I have all three shots and I am taking herbal medicine, so I don’t feel bad at all!
But I really want my wife tonight. I want to go multiple rounds, I want her to wear lingerie for me and I can tell her how she’s my good little girl. I know we shouldn’t because of Covid but that’s kind of a reason I want to do it? Knowing it’s wrong and we shouldn’t but wanting her to know I want her so badly I don’t if it’s wrong! I want to light Holy candles in our room and symbolically invite our ancestors to watch and see how beautiful this really is. I want to put a baby in her. (We’ve been trying for many years actually…)
I think I will let my wife read this and see if she lets me post it and describe the sex….. or lack thereof
My wife came home and read this and wanted me to post it for people to read 😊
As soon as she got home my wife could feel how much I wanted her, I gave her little looks and smirks here and there. Randomly touch her butt and kiss the back of her neck when no one was around.
I whispered in her ears a few times “mmm I want you” or “Fuck I love you so much”
I decided I would have an edible at this point and about an hour or so later I made my wife a nice single malt whiskey highball (I make really good ones with a very nice whiskey, wife loves them!)
By night time I was feeling pretty high and my wife had a little buzz going. She was happy and giddy, it was very cute.
I should take this time to give a quick description of us, for anyone that likes to visualize. I’m 5’8” about 170 lbs. I worked on the rigs most of my life and I am also now a competitive swimmer, so I have pretty broad shoulders, not skinny but not crazy muscular either. I’m also Canadian and I’m bigger than average down there.
My wife is a beautiful girl, Asian as well. She is about 5’3, maybe 120 lbs. Perfect little bubble butt and nice perky little tits. So great.
Anyways I couldn’t keep my hands off of her so I started to kiss her.. She pulled away and smiled. She asked if I wanted her to put on the lingerie. I said yes.
I grabbed some red stockings, garter belt, thong and brought them over. She was standing and I started to help her with her stockings. At this moment I was feeling her legs up and down. Feeling the softness of her skin. While I was rubbing her legs up and down I was looking up to her eyes, feeling like she was my queen in this moment. She was my queen but I still get to fuck her. I was already starting to feel so horny for her. I helped her get her belt and thong on and at this point I stood up.
I started to lick my lips as if I was a predator and she was my prey. I wanted her. She knew it and I knew it. The only question was how much restraint can have?
I started to kiss her neck while feeling her buddy. Going down to her perfect bubble ass and grabbing it. I press her against the wall and I can feel her starting to try and dry hump me. As I’m kissing her I stop briefly and say “mmm you want that cock don’t you, you’re my little slut wife aren’t you” and she responded in an almost whimper with her high pitch Asian voice “Yes.”
Mmm I moan slightly before I say, “I want my big cock in your mouth my little slut” and she nods her head in response. She knees in front of me with her red lingerie outfit, looking like my slut wife. She takes out my cock and starts licking it, before opening her mouth and taking as much as she can. MM it felt so good.
I stopped her fairly quickly… I knew I couldn’t last very long, with which I was very very horny.
I picked her up and laid her on the bed. I took the thong to the side and started to inert my big cock inside her… filling her up, inch by inch by inch…. She’s moaning and squirming at this point, Eventually wrapping her legs around me while I fuck her.
I knew I couldn’t last… I felt myself going to cum already. I let it happen anyways and I don’t have words that described some parts of my orgasm.
When I came inside my beautiful sexy intelligent wife….. It was by far the more intense orgasm I ever had.
First off, it felt like I came for an hour. But there was times where I literally didn’t know where I was. Some parts I thought I was in the Kingdom of Heaven, during that time I thought wow, this must be what Heaven feels like. And other times I literally have no words. I remember being there thinking there are no words.
My wife and I have been fucking everyday since.
Hope you liked my story!
Source: reddit.com/r/sexystories/comments/s3c9ww/bringing_passion_back_to_my_wife