So I’m a bi 24 year old male, I’ve been very open about my sexuality with my gf even before we started dating and she’s even jokingly suggested she’d like to watch me get fucked by another guy (although this was over a year ago and its never been brought up again) Fast forward to last week….I was on my girlfriends phone waiting for her while she was at her dental appointment, my phone was dead and I got bored and ended up scrolling through her photos. After quite some scrolling I wound up finding photos and videos of her with her getting ABSOLUTELY RAILED BY SEVERAL DIFFERENT GUYS!! she was getting straight up used by these guys and had DARK hand prints all up and down her back side, her makeup was running down her face, at one point she literally RETCHING UP CUM/DROOL as some guy had her head hanging off her bed and was deep throat fucking her.. at first I was jealous! My heart had immediately started racing, my hadns got clammy and I could feel my face practically go numb with shock and disbelief….i started to feel my stomach go into a knot but I just couldn’t look away..
Now I think it’s important to mention that these were very old videos and I think that she didn’t delete them because she has literally THOUSANDS AND THOUSANDS of pictures on her phone so she probably doesn’t even realize they were still even there. As I sat there in shock with my eyes still glued to my beautiful girlfriend getting treated like a whore, I started to feel my cock get harder and harder as I watched her just take it.. it turned me on so much to watch someone else just man handle her like that but I also felt sick to my stomach, I was so turned on while my heart simultaneously was getting consumed by jealousy and the disgusting thought of how wrong my reactionto this all was. I was jealous not only because I was watching the love of my life let herself get violated, but a small part of me wished that I was her, if that makes any sense??? The thought of getting animalistically fucked and treated like a rag doll made me even more turned on and I also found the guy’s to be really attractive (it’s a weird feelingto be jealousof someone else’s looks but also wanting to fuck them). I don’t know how to deal with these emotions! I got so hard watching her get pounded out by other people, I feel guilty that I’m fantasizing about having a 3 way with her but i get so jealous at the thought of it (which makes it hotter for some fucked up reason.) I haven’t brought this fantasy up with her but I did tell her about how I went through her phone and found those videos. She immediately started apologizing, deleted the videos and pictures and said she felt so ashamed even though I reassured her that it was okay and that I didn’t judge her for it (She’s actually told me in the past that she used to be a bit of a nympho while she was struggling with her mental health and I never held it against her but I had no idea it was to that extent. I’m constantly wondering what else she’s done)
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I keep finding myself fantasizing about those videos and even went back to look for more but couldn’t find any, I don’t know how to tell her how the videos ACTUALLY made me feel. I’m afraid she’ll lose respect for me or get grossed out by it. I feel so guilty about this but I feel like I opened pandoras box. Everytime she get a DM from some thirsty guy trying to get down her pants I’m filled with lust and jealousy and I can’t seem to stop myself or push these thoughts out of my mind.
Source: reddit.com/r/sexystories/comments/p59oqr/i_found_a_pictures_and_videos_of_my_girlfriend
Interesting story, you told reddit, so just break it down to her pretty much like how you did here
I read somewhere that your audience will perceive a topic the way you approach it. If you approach this with shame, she will react negatively. If you approach it matter-of-factly like “I have a confession about those videos. I found them kinda hot”, she will be much more accepting. See her reaction to you saying you found them hot, then elaborate further or don’t based on how she reacts.
You should just talk to her, there’s nothing better you can do. You shouldn’t talk to her, asking anything of her- but just being like “hey, how do you feel about (this or that?)” tell her how it made you feel, and if she’s not into it just be like “okay, ty for being honest with me.” relationships are all abt communication!! You’ve got this :)
Makes sense she would date a fa–ot