Hannah has struggled with her weight most of her young life. She is always paranoid about gaining weight. She would step on her scale dozens of times a day. She is only 22 but hopes to stay in top shape until her 50s… How is she going to keep a hot guy if she gets fat? All married women in her family have already gotten out of shape. They all looked beautiful and slim when they were younger, but once they hit 30s, they gained much more weight.
They are married with kids, which explains why they just let themselves go, and they just seem so… happy having done so. Many women do let go once they get married, especially in this country.
Her family is loving, hard working, and supportive of Hannah. Her mom always put her daughters first, then the rest of her family, before herself. There is no sign of dwindling love between her parents either. If anything, their connection gets stronger over the years, to the point where dad would frequently express public affection to mom. Hannah would pretend to have goose bumps, and act like shaking from cold, whenever her parents act too lovey dovey. Deep down she envies them, secretly longing for such unconditional love… then maybe one day she can just be herself, like her mom.
Mom is not an unattractive woman. Middle aged, 5’5” tall, weighing at 260 lbs, she looks voluptuous, rather than voluminous. There is no hint of lumpiness on her. Her skin is unblemished and smooth, traits she passes to her daughters. In certain months of the year, her mom might get too deep into her work and gain more weight, but she would always go back to her regular shape. When she finds time off from her busy schedule of taking care of everyone in the family and her work, she takes care of herself.
Hannah has been very active and ambitious since a young age, acting, gymnastic, ballet, fitness… Her parents made sure she had everything she wanted… as long as she was willing to put in the hard work to earn it. They never gave her any undue pressure to be somebody, as they themselves are very easy going, and generally relaxed, even though they have been top writers in Hollywood.
She had a fair chance to make something big for herself. Many people tell her she looks like the rising superstar model, Evelyn Raczkowski, with an equally ravishing body, which is a blessing and a curse, because this only adds to her tremendous, self imposed stress. Beside, she hates to be somebody’s shadow. Why does she have to look like Evelyn, and not the other way around? All she did was selling out, flaunting her tits around on MTV, and supplicating to men!
Everyday she wakes up she has to look into the mirror, fully nude, to look for blemishes. She would take pictures, videos, and save the files in her computer. With her 30D cup breasts, she constantly worries that they might sag soon. She doesn’t want to have saggy boobs. No man like saggy boobs!
Or so she thought.
Her body is… a work of a sculptor. With a celebrity body trainer as her boyfriend, Jamie Cook, she wouldn’t have to worry about losing her shape for a long time to come… and that is, if she can keep him. Jamie is extremely good at what he does. During his 8 year career, he has helped many women in Hollywood to achieve top shapes, which is also a problem at the same time. Jamie, because of his job, has unlimited access to women, women who dream about fame and constantly worry about their bodies, just like Hannah. Jamie always made their bodies a work of art with his fitness and nutritional coaching. Hannah constantly worried that she might one day lose him.
Things haven’t been smooth between them. Sex with Jamie has always been mind blowing. His shaft is almost 7 inches, and quite thick in girth. She has no complains. Not only is he athletic, he is creative with the way he uses his body in bed, with a very short recovery time after each climax, he could fuck her for hours, sometimes days. Recently, she is so paranoid because he hasn’t fucked her as frequently as he used to. She sensed that he was drifting away. Sometimes he doesn’t reply to her text for hours, sometimes a day, or even never.
No men have ever treated her like that. They all worshipped her like a goddess, but Jamie isn’t like any other man. She has never seen him overtly impressed by any woman. All his ex-girlfriends are smoking nines or tens. Why would he care for a lookalike? My life is over! This horrible thought has been lingering in her head for weeks and it would tear her up often.
This makes her so insecure that she starts becoming more needy for him. She would text him several times in an hour to push for a reply, or give him surprise visits at his gym. She knows Jamie doesn’t like it, but she just can’t stop, especially after Evelyn the model caused such a big earthquake in her world.
I don’t have much time! she tells herself that quite often. Indeed, if she wants to make it in the entertainment industry, this is the time. There is no more room for her to hee-haw. Women do expire after a certain age, Hollywood wise, even if they are still gorgeous.
It doesn’t help that she always looks at the one thing on her body that is less than perfect, and compare that part of herself with that of her peers. Now that Evelyn Raczkowski’s pictures are everywhere, it is driving her nuts! Some days she would feel so unattractive that she can’t get out of the house. She would mope around in her room, or surf the Internet for clothes, celebrity gossip, and just burn the entire day.
By night, she would feel so bad that her life isn’t moving ahead because of this repeat cycle.
“I am one day older, and still haven’t achieved anything” she would torture herself with such thoughts, and by the end of the night she would find her escape with late night snacks, alcohol, and masturbations. She needs this me-time to heal the pain.
In the quiet of the night, after her family settled down and went to bed, she locked the door of her bedroom and took out her beloved vibrator from a secret stash. Still living with my parents, what a shame! She has thought about moving in with Jamie, but she is repelled by the idea of depending on a man She left university after studying only one year, to pursue her career in the Hollywood, but she hasn’t got any job lately ever since the MTV of Evelyn came out. What she is about to do, however, always makes all the bad feelings go away, even if just for a night.
She undresses herself completely, and lies on her bed. Her shoulder length hair let loose spreading out on her pillow freely with a few strands lying on her angelic face. Once she feels totally relaxed, with her silky skin in touch with the soft texture of her bed, she moves her left hand down to her clit, slowly and gently rubbing it in circular motion with her middle finger, while her right hand holds on to the vib. Her legs spread like a frog. As the first wave of arousal ripples through her body from down there, more waves follow. Her meat cave slowly gets wet while she continues to nourish herself with this tender motion. Ahhh I love it. At this point she would forget about all her worries.
What a sight to behold, if anybody is watching her pleasuring herself, they will be helplessly turned on.
Letting it go has this effect. When her mound gets as juicy as a peach, she shoves the vibrator inside… in two hours, she would orgasm two to five times, and then fall asleep. This ritual is repeated many a night.
If only she knew that in less than one year, she would experience something life changing, completely liberating her from all these pains!
Her life will never be the same again.
Hannah likes to read and write. She has been working on her own blog, juz4gals.com for a few months now. She is hoping to make it a very popular site centering on herself, her fashions, girly insights, and other trendy topics. She would post pictures of herself dressing nice clothes, cute haircuts, and many products.
The problems are, there are already many self-made Internet celebrities: make up artists, fashion bloggers, and everything in between… Everybody is selling online. It would take at least one or two years for her blog to get ranked high on Google.
Often time she wallows in her self doubts, hesitates whether she should invest so much time on building a blog. Time flies, especially for a girl. She wants to live large, be someone special, and share her gift with the world.
She tried to model and act, but everywhere she went people were telling her she looked too much Evelyn Raczkowski, It was hard for a lookalike to find jobs when the “original” has been so well known.
If only she had taken actions for her dreams earlier… but even if she did, there was no guaranteed that she would get a job that gave her as much fame as the infamous MTV would give. This is a matter of luck, and sell out too. Hannah wouldn’t have done it even if they gave her the gig.
It has been a huge struggle for her to find her niche in this big world. She knew she was made for the industry, but how come she is so unlucky? She was given the talents, but had her career destroyed before it began.
She is stunning. Before Evelyn got famous…
Source: reddit.com/r/Erotica/comments/nfhx4x/a_fat_awakening_feederism_lesbian