Being highly insecure and not wanting to perpetuate stereotypes of gay men being slutty, Joel had always done his best to resist his own darkest desires. Knowledge of Yas’s threesome had thrown him for a loop! He sat on his bed, trying not to cry as he regretted telling his ex about his desire to have a threesome back when they were together.
It felt personal, as if Yas had done it just to spite him. Yas was the only person that Joel had ever told about such specific and lavish fantasies. Imagine telling your boyfriend of your specific fantasy of being spit-roasted, only to have it never happen, and then to have him do that for someone else so easily!
Internal kink and bottom shame had always been a problem for Joel, so admitting that he wanted two men that he could trust to be at each end of him overwhelming him and using him up, was a big deal. Monumental. Never mind the more taboo aspect of his fantasy, which usually included his own brother being the third.
All Yasin knew back then is that although Joel had some shame regarding his true desires, it seemed to be his easiest way to arouse him. It became apparent that engaging in Joel’s more taboo and indulgent fantasies is what made the sex so good. Mentioning his older brother made Joel shake more intensely, talk about spit-roasting him made his eyes roll back. Yas had some idea of the insecurities he was brushing when he did this, but Joel’s extreme and involuntary arousal was always too hard to resist. Unfortunately, Joel’s inability to be sex-positive and accepting of himself was one of the biggest reasons Yas ended it.
No other man had so easily unlocked that level of arousal and subspace in Joel. Yas was the first guy to ever make him feel so comfortable with wanting to get fucked. He knew that Yas was somewhat turned on by his bottom shame, but never imagined that Yas would so quickly provide this kind of treatment to someone else so quickly after they had broken up.
Joel couldn’t handle it anymore. Even with all of these emotions surrounding his ex, his cock was rock hard and leaking. He needed relief. It was as if Yasin has found some way to keep mentally fucking him even in the wake of his absence. He finally undid his trouser button and slip his hand down. Pleasuring himself had been hard to resist, especially during lockdown. He needed cock. He needed Yasin. He needed to be fucked, used up. This was only the beginning of his fantasies for this session.
[To be continued]
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