My boyfriend and I have been dating for several years. Always very vanilla. Always very upstanding members of our community. We volunteer in our neighborhood, with local and with national organizations. We donate time and money and resources and all our neighbors know us as this very sweet couple, lovers of the environment and of the disenfranchised and of the downtrodden members of our community.
I don’t think any of them have any clue what depraved fucking perverts we are.
6 months ago I started watching porn that initially made me sick, as a feminist. Women being hit in he face, spit on, called *whore* and *slut* and *dirty fucking bitch*. But I couldn’t stop watching it; I was hypnotized. And so, so, so turned on.
And then my boyfriend caught me watching it and when I went to toss my phone away, he insisted we watch it together.
We’re still those same upstanding members of our community. But almost every night when we’ve turned off our *good neighbor*ness and finish at work, I take off all my clothes and kneel in front of him. He wraps his fingers in my curly hair and he instructs me in using my filthy mouth in all kinds of ways. He drags me around our apartment, spitting on me, beating my ass and thighs, using my cunt and ass however he pleases. Filling me. Stretching me. Using me.
I feel so *fulfilled*. When I go down on my knees I have no desires other than to worship and serve him. Every want I have disappears and all that matters are his needs and desires. I feel like a wonderful useless – yet also useful? – little slut.
And I am *all* his.
Source: reddit.com/r/Erotica/comments/kacvc8/i_32_f_am_a_total_gutter_slut_for_my_boyfriend